AFTERMATH

最晚經歷了有生以來最嘔心瀝血的一夜
緊張程度差不多令我心臟衰竭
至今還能罕有地清晰記得夢裏的情景
因爲
我根本區別不到我當時到底有沒有意識

記得腦袋裏的記憶與信息好像亂馬一樣的在腦海裏橫沖直轉
有考試的材料 歌聲 還有疑似電影裏的情節
轉到我無法入睡
而我的身體卻顯得不耐煩 很想休息
便在床上翻動 四肢也在抓狂 不停的踢被子
三番四次的坐起來 猛抓頭皮 一心想一切靜止

然而最後我真正的醒來裏
便想著去樓下喝喝水冷靜一下
這麽離開房間10步不夠
老狗便開始猛吠 跑到我腳旁
我站著猶豫了一下 便把他卷到我手臂裏
拖著身軀回床
有點像小女孩一樣抱住他睡
煩擾的噪音也漸漸放低

我就知道 我很需要擁抱
而那只毛 竟然能看穿這一點 更送來得及時的慰藉
我只懂苦笑

仲然 今天的考試尚算順利渡過

整天的狀態也是挺差 沒怎麽説話 只想填回落魄後空虛
睡午覺 吃甜點 ...
猜不透的是 令我覺得最愉快的 是無意中在網上看到的一大堆藝術
視覺的 反而微微挑起了力竭的思維

jeffrey two

hey jeffrey. this is for you

you know. i just realised that
when im happy. theres more english and pictures and colours in this blog.


blog: hey ronnie
ronnie: yeah blog?
blog: i miss fashion.
ronnie: really?
blog: uh huh. i want to see skinny bitches.
ronnie: okay.
blog: and can you just type in english? its so boring to watch you type chinese.
ronnie: shut up blogger. you cant control me. even google has to move out of china.
blog: yeah but they moved to hong kong. haha!
ronnie: so you want me to speak guai lo? and put pictures and make this all colourful?
blog: yeah
ronnie: okay then im turning to tumblr, it's easier to quote pictures you know
blog: - -
ronnie: haha!


okay so you know. ive been typing in chinese. typing lot ta shit. and some people think im trying to get empathy or some shit. so now. that. my feelings and all that bullcrap is quite alright. cause someone is representing all you fuckloads to listen to me. i dont need to repeat the same here. so. its the comeback of skinny bitches and fancy cloths and gay cartoons and lala quotes and kickass videos and tormenting music. come back everyday :) love yall.

guess who?

muji pen and math exercise book

i quite like it, it's better than my normal drawings.

obviously the norms are blinding.

i said to willy

so the story starts with willy telling me he's planning to have another haircut
because the previous one he had, was bad.
i hate that hairdresser to be honest
since then willy's hair looks shaggy - ewy.
so anyway
i told him not to
even his hair looks awful.
''just let it grow first, there is no art to be create in your hair.''
i started laughing. because seriously there could be possibly 1000+ nice possibilities in his awful shaggy hair
but still i guess those possibilities will not make him happy
so
just let it grow.

and look what i just found. this is cute,

'colour-in dress' by Berber Soepboer & Michiel Schuurma.

f- thisishowl

i wish this is my drawing.

f- garancedore