forever.

jeffrey two

hey jeffrey. this is for you

you know. i just realised that
when im happy. theres more english and pictures and colours in this blog.


blog: hey ronnie
ronnie: yeah blog?
blog: i miss fashion.
ronnie: really?
blog: uh huh. i want to see skinny bitches.
ronnie: okay.
blog: and can you just type in english? its so boring to watch you type chinese.
ronnie: shut up blogger. you cant control me. even google has to move out of china.
blog: yeah but they moved to hong kong. haha!
ronnie: so you want me to speak guai lo? and put pictures and make this all colourful?
blog: yeah
ronnie: okay then im turning to tumblr, it's easier to quote pictures you know
blog: - -
ronnie: haha!


okay so you know. ive been typing in chinese. typing lot ta shit. and some people think im trying to get empathy or some shit. so now. that. my feelings and all that bullcrap is quite alright. cause someone is representing all you fuckloads to listen to me. i dont need to repeat the same here. so. its the comeback of skinny bitches and fancy cloths and gay cartoons and lala quotes and kickass videos and tormenting music. come back everyday :) love yall.

零碎的思想

繼上一次其實打了兩篇日記，不過決定不post了 (quote) "時差6? 個小時的好友都嗅到了我黑色的味道，我應該停了吧。" 有些内容，我不想再提。烏雲密布的日子都會換來彩虹，我的彩虹不必太顯眼，只需要提醒我it's not the end of the world.

"現階段，你就是我的特效藥
你的存在比任何朋友的安慰來得貼心
這大概都是因爲你有兩個身分吧
哈哈 也許我該下點苦功找個女best friend
否則我一輩子都要黏著你"


"也許i should occupy myself with something
不過總會有讓我想起你的時候

你沒有做錯 it's actually all my fault
我任性
其實我理智不了 都是來騙大家的"

向來就是一個滿腦fantasy的人 喜歡想未來: 去什麽大學 結交什麽朋友 做什麽工作 住什麽房子 跟什麽的人結婚 (不要誤會) 去什麽地方旅遊

抹殺事情如何發生的各種可能性 對我而言是很黑色的

你就是相反吧

就像你一直以來都是悲觀派 我就是樂觀派

今天的喪禮timing也挺好的
剛好我在想未來
整個喪禮 令我最心酸的就是看著嫲嫲哭
我可以從她的動作 眼神 表情 看得出，她的心真的很痛很痛 像被撕開一樣
要跟相處了好幾個10年，一起過了大半生，最依賴，最親，最能明白你的人分開
我連想也不敢想

另外想到的就是父母親離開的時候
真的很少會看到爸爸哭
到我的時候 究竟我會再衆人前說什麽話呢
我想起碼我一定會翻開這個blog 太多感情被記錄了吧

晚上吃飯的時候 我竟然問媽媽關於大學的問題 我還真怪

突然想起，對了，被tagged的人，請記得邀請我去你們的婚禮，兒女滿月酒，喪禮。
如果忘記我，我會跟你絕交的! 哈哈 just joking，不過...
我跟nicole已經約定了! 婚禮酒席我們一定要坐在親友後那一張 (那張是給親人外最親的人)
你們應該 "識做" 啦 :)

i dropped my mouth open. clap clap clap; ily tsin.

angela might want a boyfriend with this.

be critical

i mean it. be critical.
i was never talented at drawing.
i never like drawing. actually i did when i was in primary school. but people laughed at my drawing then i gave up.
i rushed through these.
personally. i think they are excrement (crap). but whatever, i like opinions. because opinions let me know where i have to improve. and it would be greatly appriciated if you do be critical and comment/cbox.
p.s. im having trouble with the hair.
click to enlarge.

jealousy

naw angela i hate you to the max.
everyones missing you.
everyone wrote your name on their pm. wrote notes for you.
where was mine when i left.
oh you should be so happy.

im jealous.
i really am.

still.

have fun in uk :) i'll miss you heaps.

childhood.

this post is dedicated to angela
this girl who i first officially met in yr 5

also became my best friend in yr 5
stole my boyfriend in yr 7
is willing do all the things you can imagine unless she dies from it
has a famous saying in my memories: ''so? you wouldn't die from it"
has the blastest attitude ever ; so cheeky you just don't know what to say.
got back with her boyfriend in yr 6 again, that photo made me Laugh Out Loud.
got a tongue piercing that made me woah and kind of jealous >:D
got heaps of piercings on her ears
dyed her hair god knows how many times
used to be ultra long hair, now has it short.

and
will dwell in my memories.

angela
good luck in uk :) i will visit sometime. imy :))

she reminds me of you, imy zoe :)

vogue paris sept 09.

coffee sessions

i have a rather strange thought
in my blog
if my posts get comments, that means i made a good point. wohoo im a good blogger.
but if consecutive posts dont get comments, that means my thoughts/perspecitve have gone wrong. and i'd felt like deleting all those posts
the only thing that stops me from doing so is how blog actually functions as a diary. so your not meant to delete your thoughts
like how you think you look stupid being video tapped by your dad but looking back a few years later you realize it's not really that bad
fine
i'll keep it.
i have a slight motivation in making another blog. not trashing this
just making another one
for fashion
like how that blogger has so many websites: le love, le fashion, le smoking.
and im planning to call the blog coffee sessions
ben and i had this thing called starbucks sessions
it's when we just hang in starbucks doing all sorts of things
math, random convos, boys,... and more. it's beyond my imagination sometimes
so the blog is callled coffee sessions
simply because i wouldnt use a brand on my blog title and because the blog are meant to be for you to read in free time for relaxation or whatever you like
anyother thing on these sessions
since both of us feel like we are missing it so much
i decided to make a monument for it. and also as my art project.
(monument comes from kathy temin's white forest)
thou life in ozland is still boring as it had ever been, and i havnt stepped my foot on hong kong for nearly half a year
im glad my awesomes are not forgoting me
especially ben and willy and shiying
willy was so cute yesterday. he was like 'dude, it's just impossible for me to forget you......everything around me is simply related to you.' and he went on abut the song ''tong wa'' how chinese week had screwed him up hahah i love phone calls with willy when he had no troubles in his mind
and shiying was extremely sweet too. i was impressed. she was like ''omb ronnie when ae you coming bak? im gonna write it in my diary.'' thou quite dissappointed that she still havnt wrote it down after god knows how many times of my reminderrs, im happy she actually asked :)
funny im having a math test today but everything feels so pain free.
and a speical thanks here to my dearest annoying roomate for teaching me math :)
she should be my math teacher for the next two years, cause damn shes so much better than my current one.

this is dedicated to amy

Peter Jensen Resort 2010
miss you bunny, get well soon :)

my parents' prophets

my parents predicted that im gonna spend my money so fast like i burn them
it's ture
well, quite true.
because im closed to bankrupcy, like christian lacroix :O
but long weekend are meant to be shopping days
i might just beg my parents to send some money over :/

seriously cant wait to leave
i'll be watching nicolee's video over and over again.
catch up on some mitchell davis
and bitch talk with my awesomes
shh.

oh did i mention im in this buisness program ?
it's quite fun
im seriously looking forward to our products
we've decided to make LAPTOP SLEEVES!
i've already came up with some designs hehe
and i've just sold some shares
i feel like my life is up and moving :)

and oh oh i recieved a very extremely unexpected voice mail from my aunt and uncle
so we went dinner last night
it was great
and exams went well yesterday
i had a feeling yesterday might be my lucky day.

ohhh man geoffrey told me he might be coming to melbourne for a year
i wish he does
seriously do
AND I KNOW YOU'LL BE READING THIS GEOFFREY!
i need some accompany you know :/


and dude i feel so stupid blogging about my exams now
what are my exams?
like nothing right?
when the hsc vce ib people are whining i should seriously just zip it
okay invisible strike on all my posts on exams :)

alright. i gotta go showaaa. or continue blogging idk.
-r

BEN YOU BETTER REPLY MY EMAIL YOU FAT GEEK.
orrrr I'LL SEND YOU ANOTHER 'POSTCARD' ;D

my awesomes forever

something i cant believe is still happening
nicolee still tagging me on her notes :)
shiying still reading my blog: your comment, even it's not funny it gave me a very big smile.
willy still talking to me frequently on msn :)

wtf ben havent called/msned for like nearly 3 weeks
i sent a ''postcard'' (in fact a photo of us hahahahhaha) to him hopefully hes not dead

and SHIT nicole and me are not having the same long weekend!
we just found out yesterday i was damn pissed.
i was shouting at her :( sorry nicole but i felt kinda doomed cause i was worried i'll have nowhere to sleep
but it's good now im sleeping in my friends place in doncaster which is even further away from the city than burwood.
uh this is kinda crap
but good i got a place to sleep
and her guardian didnt charge me


going out to the city today to do studying :)
must say starbucks is the best place to study
uhh fuck bringing me all these good times flashbacks again
yeh me and ben used to take our laptops there and just work or study
one i really rmbed was working on math assignment, i think i got a pretty good mark because of him hhaha
two was the design expo i had to make everyone pofile shit that was pretty fun as well
and starbucks reminded me of the tumbler you gave me, it's cracked again :)
but i kept it safe :)
lol we bond from caffaine hhahaah
this is pretty cool



and wtf yesterday power got cut off man it totally ruined my routine i couldnt get on to studying :O
my mom called me after power was back on, funny i wasnt really in that sarcastic tone anymore, i guess i've accepted the truth im here and im full on my original motive: dream ,art , future.
and like yesterday was supposed to be my half relax day so i can just surf around but i ended up doing sudoku
mygod i found it so funnn again
i used to play with jeffrey on msn alllll the time it was so fun
lolololololol
heheh
yeh i gtg.
that it for today . im in a pretty good mood cause when i woke up i was listening to bossa nova and then i had a comfy brekky yeh lol.
im getting easier easily amused. fuck lol.
hahaahh.
i feel gay. happyy weee.
oh now im thinking about jasper


HAHAHAH


IM MISSING EVERYONE.

if you know me well enough, you'll know why i like this photo

guess who?

childish brain.

i have this friend
she likes to dream talk at times
ha, that kwak.

the talk is often impractical
yet has its potential

i get carried away by some of those talks
they always sound so ideal

once her mom said her
'don't just say it, you have do it.
it's useless if you're only talking about.'

i really like fashion
and photography,
and make up art.

you can tell alot about someone by his/her fashion.
you can capture "impossible to reproduce" moments in photography.
you can manipulate a person through the make up. their personality, their identity, their emotion..


i never thought about starting early
perhaps at heart, i'm just like that friend
but i think i'm going to start now.
i need to, i want to feel my importance again.

the ones

that never fail to make me laugh, imy.

click to enlarge

haha

CLICK TO ENLARGE :)

i said to willy

so the story starts with willy telling me he's planning to have another haircut
because the previous one he had, was bad.
i hate that hairdresser to be honest
since then willy's hair looks shaggy - ewy.
so anyway
i told him not to
even his hair looks awful.
''just let it grow first, there is no art to be create in your hair.''
i started laughing. because seriously there could be possibly 1000+ nice possibilities in his awful shaggy hair
but still i guess those possibilities will not make him happy
so
just let it grow.

and look what i just found. this is cute,

'colour-in dress' by Berber Soepboer & Michiel Schuurma.

f- thisishowl