記得我曾經說過，每次當一段關係告吹，我得帶走一些東西。因爲戀愛，是應該讓我們成長的。不然，當時所付出過的愛，會隨著記憶凋談而貶值。記住：愛，是需要勇氣的。無論你倆現在的關係如何，愛過就是愛過。不要讓那些淚白流。
Showing posts with label life. Show all posts
Showing posts with label life. Show all posts
Monday, September 12, 2011
Wednesday, March 2, 2011
空 白 格
其實很簡單 其實很自然 兩個人的愛由兩人分擔
其實並不難 是你太悲觀 隔著一道牆不跟誰分享
不想讓 你為難 你不再需要給我的答案
我想你是愛我的 我猜你也捨不得
但是怎麼說 總覺得 我們之間有了太多空白格 也許你不是我的
愛你卻又該割捨 分開或許是選擇 但它也可能是我們的緣份
Monday, February 21, 2011
Tuesday, January 25, 2011
Tuesday, November 2, 2010
Wednesday, October 27, 2010
Friday, September 10, 2010
''and i don't want to change''
the saddest thing in life/what scares me
is change.
it used to be separation since i was little
the idea of separation is frightening
death. divorce. breakups.
but sometime, we get to control separation
we have solutions for breakdowns.
but change is inevitable.
and it seems to be the cause for almost everything
including separation.
in early 2009. i said, i don't want to change.
as if, you stupid bitch.
it's impossible
not matter how stubborn or old freak you are.
you will
your hair is falling, your eyes are blinking
your fingers are twitching
and thats why
the most amazing thing in life
is when you defy change
and hold on to things
i hope our friendship last forever :)
is change.
it used to be separation since i was little
the idea of separation is frightening
death. divorce. breakups.
but sometime, we get to control separation
we have solutions for breakdowns.
but change is inevitable.
and it seems to be the cause for almost everything
including separation.
in early 2009. i said, i don't want to change.
as if, you stupid bitch.
it's impossible
not matter how stubborn or old freak you are.
you will
your hair is falling, your eyes are blinking
your fingers are twitching
and thats why
the most amazing thing in life
is when you defy change
and hold on to things
i hope our friendship last forever :)
Monday, September 6, 2010
get things straight
things i really want (need) to do right now.
1. grow some nails. i want to wear nail polish okay?
2. grow hair. i want them long, period. im sick of having experimental fringe. i think i need to stick with just one stylist at a time. and i need to at least try to avoid crappy stylist. i think i should save up for better stylists here.
3. lose some weight. i just want skinner legs. do you find it wrong?
4. eat healthier. i can feel that my blood flooded with poisions. (my life is all about chocolate and sweet shits now)
5. sleep better. i cant bare to look at myself in front of the mirror. horror. even my english teacher nodds.
6. learn about menswear. very very fascinating. i think i need a friend on that?
7. experiment on cameras. it's getting very boring with clicking on semi auto mode. kids are catching up fast these days.
8. save up for a new ipod. i think the lamma rain killed it. no a nano is not good enough.
9. get willy to develop my funsaver and diana photos. my heart is itching like foot okay?
10. fly home. (impossible)
11. see you.
newly added.
12. clean up room.
13. make inspiration pin ups
14. clean up email inbox
15. make a list of things for dad to bring to aus from hk
16. arrange postage for stuff i bought online
17. get my L.
18. prepare presents for the bitches. nicolee, angela, shiying. shit it's september already?
19. finalise designs. make them.
1. grow some nails. i want to wear nail polish okay?
2. grow hair. i want them long, period. im sick of having experimental fringe. i think i need to stick with just one stylist at a time. and i need to at least try to avoid crappy stylist. i think i should save up for better stylists here.
3. lose some weight. i just want skinner legs. do you find it wrong?
4. eat healthier. i can feel that my blood flooded with poisions. (my life is all about chocolate and sweet shits now)
5. sleep better. i cant bare to look at myself in front of the mirror. horror. even my english teacher nodds.
6. learn about menswear. very very fascinating. i think i need a friend on that?
7. experiment on cameras. it's getting very boring with clicking on semi auto mode. kids are catching up fast these days.
8. save up for a new ipod. i think the lamma rain killed it. no a nano is not good enough.
newly added.
12. clean up room.
13. make inspiration pin ups
14. clean up email inbox
15. make a list of things for dad to bring to aus from hk
16. arrange postage for stuff i bought online
17. get my L.
18. prepare presents for the bitches. nicolee, angela, shiying. shit it's september already?
19. finalise designs. make them.
Saturday, August 21, 2010
i know im not a good photographer.
but i love photopraphy.
precisely, strictly, the old scool photography.
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Tuesday, August 17, 2010
Monday, August 16, 2010
I SAW ABBEY LEE KERSHAW YESTERDAY.
in camberwell market. we were like, one metre away, face to face.
i think she can tell that i can recognise her.
i can tell by her bangs. her eyes. her nose piercing. her jawline. her height. and her skinnyness. her style.
and her home is in melbourne. so it makes sense.
but no. i didnt ask for a photo. or an autograph.
feels so retarded to do so. thou i kind of want to. haha. wish i was braver.
good to see you. you are one of my favourites.
how cool is it, to meet you by chance.
i've never even bump into my friends by chance, wahahaha.
i think she can tell that i can recognise her.
i can tell by her bangs. her eyes. her nose piercing. her jawline. her height. and her skinnyness. her style.
and her home is in melbourne. so it makes sense.
but no. i didnt ask for a photo. or an autograph.
feels so retarded to do so. thou i kind of want to. haha. wish i was braver.
good to see you. you are one of my favourites.
how cool is it, to meet you by chance.
i've never even bump into my friends by chance, wahahaha.
Thursday, August 5, 2010
沒有四個月
其實我很希望你在某情況下，會來這個blog
看看我的近況，看看有沒有抱恙，
我並沒有期望你無聊或有空的時候就來
我知道你是不會的 你還是對你的遊戲比較有興趣
試過好幾次 當我寫完一大篇垃圾，再等多幾個小時，我就會自動叫你來
不過...我想我這次真的不會
就讓這成為一個小試驗吧。
我們分開 都好幾個星期了
可能練習得多，裝得挺好，也騙到人
不過我的思緒其實一直都沒有離開過你
心 還是很沈重 也很痛，是很痛很痛的那種
我曾經也騙過自己
找來一大堆安慰自己的理由
- 他不是說他還喜歡你嗎？
- 小男生都是愛自由，不愛被綑綁的...
- 單親家庭，會明白感情嗎？
- 他把朋友和女朋友之間的界線模糊了...
不過最後，我還是明白
很簡單，你根本已經不愛我了。
你說你是喜歡我，不是愛我
如果你跟我說好朋友跟女朋友沒差 喜歡與愛也沒差
我會說 當你真的愛一個人，你是會介意的
你知道為甚麼會有女朋友這回事嗎？
因為女朋友只需要一個 那是一個特別的位置
為甚麼要跟個朋友分開 盡量避開，不見面就行
但是跟女朋友分開 要來個分手的儀式？
因為女朋友是伴侶 你們是一對的
朋友通常是一班 而不是一對
你明白麼？
我不可以曖曖昧昧的跟你當朋友，因為很多事，只是留給那一個人
如果你認為可以，我覺得你並不專重角色這東西
想想，如果你跟幾個好朋友都是這樣，其實就像一個player
或者你可以說我不喜歡分享
男女朋友，不只是抱抱輕輕的，當愛情被燃燒完，就只剩下感情
感情，不需要抱抱輕輕，也可以的。
那天我去觀禮，才發覺，原來結婚誓詞，是那麼貼切的形容感情
無論安樂困苦，豐富貧窮，健康衰弱，你都愛護她，安慰她，尊重她，保護她，專一於她，終生不渝
我不是想把我們拉到結婚去
只是 兩個人，日子久了，就只會剩下這些。 要明白，我們又第一次在一起到現在，都七年了
某程度上，那位相處了很久的另一半，也自然成爲你最好的朋友
可惜到現在，有很多事，你都不會告訴我，好像覺得我沒有必要知道，
甚至那個最後的決定，你也是在毫無預告的情況下告訴我。
理性地，其實我覺得你非常自私
不過 我很清楚我自己已經愛你到一個，'我根本不懂去恨你自私' 的地步
我很樂於接受你的不好；每次生氣/失望的時候，我還是很想抱住你
而可笑的是，到我終于明白什麽叫做‘當你喜歡一個人，你會接受他的一切’
你渺渺因為覺得這端關係無形，輕易放棄了
我不會強求，只要是你想做的，我都不想爲難你
但我可以很肯定的告訴你，無論發生甚麼事，我從來也沒想過放棄
因爲我曾經相信，我們七年來，情還沒有難，是很奇妙的事
我很珍惜我們的一切，更想過要一直這樣下去
未來的影像，本來慢慢都是你的
我承認我很老土，喜歡執子之手，與子皆老這一套
不過那可是你令我明白的 怎麽事情就那麽諷刺
你最近還好嗎?
我會等你的...就算多久也好，因爲，你比誰都重要
就算我跟別人在一起，我也會想念你，你我有過的，實在太多。
看看我的近況，看看有沒有抱恙，
我並沒有期望你無聊或有空的時候就來
我知道你是不會的 你還是對你的遊戲比較有興趣
試過好幾次 當我寫完一大篇垃圾，再等多幾個小時，我就會自動叫你來
不過...我想我這次真的不會
就讓這成為一個小試驗吧。
我們分開 都好幾個星期了
可能練習得多，裝得挺好，也騙到人
不過我的思緒其實一直都沒有離開過你
心 還是很沈重 也很痛，是很痛很痛的那種
我曾經也騙過自己
找來一大堆安慰自己的理由
- 他不是說他還喜歡你嗎？
- 小男生都是愛自由，不愛被綑綁的...
- 單親家庭，會明白感情嗎？
- 他把朋友和女朋友之間的界線模糊了...
不過最後，我還是明白
很簡單，你根本已經不愛我了。
你說你是喜歡我，不是愛我
如果你跟我說好朋友跟女朋友沒差 喜歡與愛也沒差
我會說 當你真的愛一個人，你是會介意的
你知道為甚麼會有女朋友這回事嗎？
因為女朋友只需要一個 那是一個特別的位置
為甚麼要跟個朋友分開 盡量避開，不見面就行
但是跟女朋友分開 要來個分手的儀式？
因為女朋友是伴侶 你們是一對的
朋友通常是一班 而不是一對
你明白麼？
我不可以曖曖昧昧的跟你當朋友，因為很多事，只是留給那一個人
如果你認為可以，我覺得你並不專重角色這東西
想想，如果你跟幾個好朋友都是這樣，其實就像一個player
或者你可以說我不喜歡分享
男女朋友，不只是抱抱輕輕的，當愛情被燃燒完，就只剩下感情
感情，不需要抱抱輕輕，也可以的。
那天我去觀禮，才發覺，原來結婚誓詞，是那麼貼切的形容感情
無論安樂困苦，豐富貧窮，健康衰弱，你都愛護她，安慰她，尊重她，保護她，專一於她，終生不渝
我不是想把我們拉到結婚去
只是 兩個人，日子久了，就只會剩下這些。 要明白，我們又第一次在一起到現在，都七年了
某程度上，那位相處了很久的另一半，也自然成爲你最好的朋友
可惜到現在，有很多事，你都不會告訴我，好像覺得我沒有必要知道，
甚至那個最後的決定，你也是在毫無預告的情況下告訴我。
理性地，其實我覺得你非常自私
不過 我很清楚我自己已經愛你到一個，'我根本不懂去恨你自私' 的地步
我很樂於接受你的不好；每次生氣/失望的時候，我還是很想抱住你
而可笑的是，到我終于明白什麽叫做‘當你喜歡一個人，你會接受他的一切’
你渺渺因為覺得這端關係無形，輕易放棄了
我不會強求，只要是你想做的，我都不想爲難你
但我可以很肯定的告訴你，無論發生甚麼事，我從來也沒想過放棄
因爲我曾經相信，我們七年來，情還沒有難，是很奇妙的事
我很珍惜我們的一切，更想過要一直這樣下去
未來的影像，本來慢慢都是你的
我承認我很老土，喜歡執子之手，與子皆老這一套
不過那可是你令我明白的 怎麽事情就那麽諷刺
你最近還好嗎?
我會等你的...就算多久也好，因爲，你比誰都重要
就算我跟別人在一起，我也會想念你，你我有過的，實在太多。
Monday, July 26, 2010
sometimes i really love my fb status.
July 10
某人說: 香港，一年小變，三年一大變。離開半年，elements外的哥爾夫球場被拆，sogo三樓鋪位被改動，很多一切，在沒有被目擊的情況下，變了。這個地方，突然有點陌生，令人感到害怕。就像自己的家，牆壁被翻新，傢俬被換走，你仍然懵然不知。
July 12
那種態度，風格，好像慢慢被循規蹈矩/盲目/沉悶的環境沖洗。很想念自己畫著粗粗的眼綫，狂妄自大的時光。究竟我是什麽時候變得那麽怕事？最近的記憶，似乎有點暗淡。
July 15
很想回家 很想過夏天 很想跟你們去海灘 很想聼到地鐵的廣播 很想看到你的臉 很想抱住你 很想食牛奶公司 很想跟你逛街 很想逛街 很想照相 很想喝珍珠奶茶 很想置身崇光對面的大馬路 很想去機鋪打交 很想跟你們不眠不休的暢談...
July 23
希望明天可以是一個新的開始。不要再哭到眼睛不能眨，把你抛到後腦去就是了。
July 26
很想兩年前的一夜。我們九龍公園聚集，佐敦遊蕩，別人家喧嘩，直下彌敦道，西洋菜街漫步，觀看紋身，流連糖水鋪。你可以說那是很久以前的事，不過，仍然是很快樂的一夜。那種快樂，跟你們在一起才會有。那種快樂，不是短暫的，到現在回想，心臟還是會哼歌。再來一回？
某人說: 香港，一年小變，三年一大變。離開半年，elements外的哥爾夫球場被拆，sogo三樓鋪位被改動，很多一切，在沒有被目擊的情況下，變了。這個地方，突然有點陌生，令人感到害怕。就像自己的家，牆壁被翻新，傢俬被換走，你仍然懵然不知。
July 12
那種態度，風格，好像慢慢被循規蹈矩/盲目/沉悶的環境沖洗。很想念自己畫著粗粗的眼綫，狂妄自大的時光。究竟我是什麽時候變得那麽怕事？最近的記憶，似乎有點暗淡。
July 15
很想回家 很想過夏天 很想跟你們去海灘 很想聼到地鐵的廣播 很想看到你的臉 很想抱住你 很想食牛奶公司 很想跟你逛街 很想逛街 很想照相 很想喝珍珠奶茶 很想置身崇光對面的大馬路 很想去機鋪打交 很想跟你們不眠不休的暢談...
July 23
希望明天可以是一個新的開始。不要再哭到眼睛不能眨，把你抛到後腦去就是了。
July 26
很想兩年前的一夜。我們九龍公園聚集，佐敦遊蕩，別人家喧嘩，直下彌敦道，西洋菜街漫步，觀看紋身，流連糖水鋪。你可以說那是很久以前的事，不過，仍然是很快樂的一夜。那種快樂，跟你們在一起才會有。那種快樂，不是短暫的，到現在回想，心臟還是會哼歌。再來一回？
Friday, July 16, 2010
每天你就是這樣的周旋著我。
摘下放大鏡，才發現原來自己只得到了沙粒般的感覺. ombre- - 7 月 16 日
you are my final destination. MJ TAM replied. 不要失散 - 7 月 14 日
if i had a single flower for everytime i think about you, i could walk forever in my garden. - 7 月 11 日
時間一分分地飄過 - 7 月 1 日
( pacemaker ) walk an extra mile indians + cowboys - 6 月 24 日
( pacemaker ) clear vision indians + cowboys - 6 月 22 日
( pacemaker ) you never know. disorientation indians + cowboys - 6 月 21 日
( pacemaker ) bleeding minds indians + cowboys - 6 月 10 日
19 ( pacemaker ) lets just jettison I WAN NEW IPHONE indians + cowboys yeeha! - 6 月 8 日
22 ( pacemaker ) 很幼稚的等- - 6 月 4 日
24 ( pacemaker ) 麻木到一邊乾香檳一邊抽煙觀看地震 - 6 月 3 日
27 ( pacemaker ) 月球正以約每年3厘米的速度遠離地球. - 5 月 30 日
29 ( pacemaker ) ephemeral let the birds fly. - 5 月 28 日
30 ( pacemaker ) ephemeral this could be something - 5 月 27 日
31 ( pacemaker ) de javu - parallel universe. - 5 月 25 日
31 ( pacemaker ) believe. and it will come back to you. my brain is a dried prune. - 5 月 25 日
32 ( pacemaker ) 碎影 my brain is a dried prune. - 5 月 25 日
34 ( pacemaker ) I WAN TO DIE DIE DIE. - 5 月 23 日
37 ( pacemaker ) this is just like bashing the water get me out of this labyrinth. - 5 月 20 日
40 總有恨不得放棄的時候 - 5 月 17 日
41 AMY AMY HAPPY BDAY ILY BIG TIME ! 多麽艱巨的事情 - 5 月 16 日
42 are we really what we think we are' - 5 月 14 日
47 1234 anndemeulemeester - 5 月 10 日
我存在 在 你的存在 50 anndemeulemeester - 5 月 7 日
printer madness 54 anndemeulemeester disintegrate- - 5 月 4 日
let time be the witness. 55 anndemeulemeester relapse - 5 月 2 日
1/6, 817, 394, 740 57 harder- relapse - 4 月 29 日
whenever i am with you. 62. #931028 relapse - 4 月 25 日
play the tricks 62. #931028 relapse - 4 月 25 日
dayum 64. stupid to wait #931028 throbb. - 4 月 23 日
dayum 65. #931028 throbb. - 4 月 23 日
i cant stop thinking about you. shit. 67 . no.eleven - 4 月 20 日
this gotta mean something, right? no.eleven - 4 月 19 日
who knows what this all mean? dilemma no.eleven - 4 月 19 日
你會在那裏 過得快樂或委屈 no.eleven - 4 月 18 日
兩個人的事情 pandora ep17 : OO hins no.eleven - 4 月 18 日
喘氣 bittersweet orbit 期待著73日後的空氣 - 4 月 15 日
缺氧 bittersweet orbit 期待著73日後的空氣 - 4 月 15 日
請緊記: 你是全世界， bittersweet orbit 期待著73日後的空氣 - 4 月 14 日
you are my final destination. MJ TAM replied. 不要失散 - 7 月 14 日
if i had a single flower for everytime i think about you, i could walk forever in my garden. - 7 月 11 日
時間一分分地飄過 - 7 月 1 日
( pacemaker ) walk an extra mile indians + cowboys - 6 月 24 日
( pacemaker ) clear vision indians + cowboys - 6 月 22 日
( pacemaker ) you never know. disorientation indians + cowboys - 6 月 21 日
( pacemaker ) bleeding minds indians + cowboys - 6 月 10 日
19 ( pacemaker ) lets just jettison I WAN NEW IPHONE indians + cowboys yeeha! - 6 月 8 日
22 ( pacemaker ) 很幼稚的等- - 6 月 4 日
24 ( pacemaker ) 麻木到一邊乾香檳一邊抽煙觀看地震 - 6 月 3 日
27 ( pacemaker ) 月球正以約每年3厘米的速度遠離地球. - 5 月 30 日
29 ( pacemaker ) ephemeral let the birds fly. - 5 月 28 日
30 ( pacemaker ) ephemeral this could be something - 5 月 27 日
31 ( pacemaker ) de javu - parallel universe. - 5 月 25 日
31 ( pacemaker ) believe. and it will come back to you. my brain is a dried prune. - 5 月 25 日
32 ( pacemaker ) 碎影 my brain is a dried prune. - 5 月 25 日
34 ( pacemaker ) I WAN TO DIE DIE DIE. - 5 月 23 日
37 ( pacemaker ) this is just like bashing the water get me out of this labyrinth. - 5 月 20 日
40 總有恨不得放棄的時候 - 5 月 17 日
41 AMY AMY HAPPY BDAY ILY BIG TIME ! 多麽艱巨的事情 - 5 月 16 日
42 are we really what we think we are' - 5 月 14 日
47 1234 anndemeulemeester - 5 月 10 日
我存在 在 你的存在 50 anndemeulemeester - 5 月 7 日
printer madness 54 anndemeulemeester disintegrate- - 5 月 4 日
let time be the witness. 55 anndemeulemeester relapse - 5 月 2 日
1/6, 817, 394, 740 57 harder- relapse - 4 月 29 日
whenever i am with you. 62. #931028 relapse - 4 月 25 日
play the tricks 62. #931028 relapse - 4 月 25 日
dayum 64. stupid to wait #931028 throbb. - 4 月 23 日
dayum 65. #931028 throbb. - 4 月 23 日
i cant stop thinking about you. shit. 67 . no.eleven - 4 月 20 日
this gotta mean something, right? no.eleven - 4 月 19 日
who knows what this all mean? dilemma no.eleven - 4 月 19 日
你會在那裏 過得快樂或委屈 no.eleven - 4 月 18 日
兩個人的事情 pandora ep17 : OO hins no.eleven - 4 月 18 日
喘氣 bittersweet orbit 期待著73日後的空氣 - 4 月 15 日
缺氧 bittersweet orbit 期待著73日後的空氣 - 4 月 15 日
請緊記: 你是全世界， bittersweet orbit 期待著73日後的空氣 - 4 月 14 日
Wednesday, July 14, 2010
i can almost rename this blog to: what i what my boyfriend to wear
jokes. it's just that the womens stuff are being posted elsewhere. i'd tell you if i want to. please don't be too disgusted at my new obsession.
If I was economically independent, and we live together. I'd buy this. Unisex bags are handy. And 478 us dollars sounds so much more affordable.
things i really want to do right now.
1. grow some nails. i want to wear nail polish okay?
2. grow hair. i want them long, period. im sick of having experimental fringe. i think i need to stick with just one stylist at a time. and i need to at least try to avoid crappy stylist. i think i should save up for better stylists here.
3. lose some weight. i just want skinner legs. do you find it wrong?
4. eat healthier. i can feel that my blood flooded with poisions.
5. sleep better. i cant bare to look at myself in front of the mirror. horror. even my english teacher nodds.
6. learn about menswear. very very fascinating. i think i need a friend on that?
7. experiment on cameras. it's getting very boring. kids are catching up fast these days.
8. save up for a new ipod. i think the lamma rain killed it. no a nano is not good enough.
9. get willy to develop my funsaver and diana photos. my heart is itching like foot okay?
10. fly home.
11. see you.
2. grow hair. i want them long, period. im sick of having experimental fringe. i think i need to stick with just one stylist at a time. and i need to at least try to avoid crappy stylist. i think i should save up for better stylists here.
3. lose some weight. i just want skinner legs. do you find it wrong?
4. eat healthier. i can feel that my blood flooded with poisions.
5. sleep better. i cant bare to look at myself in front of the mirror. horror. even my english teacher nodds.
6. learn about menswear. very very fascinating. i think i need a friend on that?
7. experiment on cameras. it's getting very boring. kids are catching up fast these days.
8. save up for a new ipod. i think the lamma rain killed it. no a nano is not good enough.
9. get willy to develop my funsaver and diana photos. my heart is itching like foot okay?
10. fly home.
11. see you.
Tuesday, July 13, 2010
so why did i refund those shoes?
Opening Ceremony Fall/Winter 2010 Footwear Collection
fan of desert boots.
got a pair from zara: tan suede. but they just dont work quite like how i want em.
got a pair from zara: tan suede. but they just dont work quite like how i want em.
i actually saw the grey ones in shanghai. but im just too poor for opening ceremony. you know
Wednesday, June 23, 2010
explosions
for awhile
i thought ive changed, been manipulated.
i thought that ronnie was never going to come back
i dont listen, speak, laugh, like i used to;
but yesterday. there seemed to be this spark in me
and it reminded me of what life was like back then
is it the new him. or music. or simply that ive successfully shift into this choking space?
regarding new him. means really nothing. i dont want anybody but you.
this other day. i was just going to say- three words, eight letters.
i thought ive changed, been manipulated.
i thought that ronnie was never going to come back
i dont listen, speak, laugh, like i used to;
but yesterday. there seemed to be this spark in me
and it reminded me of what life was like back then
is it the new him. or music. or simply that ive successfully shift into this choking space?
regarding new him. means really nothing. i dont want anybody but you.
this other day. i was just going to say- three words, eight letters.
Wednesday, June 16, 2010
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