4 days.

til my birthday.

it's so damn fast. i remember the time i said the same thing when i was probably 13/14.
now im going to 16.
once i got told, once you get 16, time will pass really really fast.
i really dont want that to happen.

im kind of scared
when i get to a certain age, perhaps i'll say the same thing like my mother: it feels like theres no time to waste.
i never really looked forward to this age. 16. sounds more like a burden to me.

i used to say i wanna grow up faster. now hold on, please slow down.

it's always good to be a child. the days are spent on incredibly addictive cartoon, plastic colorful toys, marathon phone calls, and so much more.
at this point of life. i might not be so immature or naive, but it wont be mature yet. im growing, and learning. looking back at the 16 years. i appriciated love from my dad, mom and my sister.

dad. you've always been the man for me. you taught me alot, from how to use the dvd recorder to what it's a good career for me, a thousands thank yous. your dynamic Kentdesign transforming from a toy design company to a commerical design company inspires me. thanks for everything. every single possesion of mine, exists because of you.

mom. your excellence in being mother is incredibly. you cook the best food, you've been a like filipino helper since we came to aus, your effort makes me speechless. thanks for all the care. although sometimes we share diffferent views. and i would think that you've been wrong decisions. it's acknowledged that you want the best for me.

sister. i've been a really bad sister when you were young. practically i was a bitch. i really enjoy time with you now. and mom and dad had made the right choice shooting you out to the world. because i'd be lonely as hell without you.

friends in aishk. i cant say im speechless. because seriously honestly none of the words in any language can describe how i feel. i really did think that, aishk is the best place of the world.

friends in plc. i might be a pain in the ass. due the channeling problem. i think im tuning it. not intentionally. but maybe you guys are slowly invading into me.

ON A BRIGHT SIDE.
HOW COULD ANYBODY NOT DESERVE A NICE PRESENT ON THEIR 16 BIRTHDAY
okay. like. not hint anything- dont misunderstand.

16 WISHLIST.

-summer fedora
- daydress (<< new obsession. tshirt dress, sleeveless dress, etc etc)
-yankees cap. the one with in blue and white font :)))
- beach top: those wide collar top basically
- boho skirt print prints prints!
-mesh/print top
- menstank: loose tank basically. i'd be nice with little details like pockets.
- metallic blue / met purple / white eyeliner
- bright red/ nude lipstick.

me greedy pig.

woohoo. IM GOIING SHOPPING LATERRR!