explosions

for awhile
i thought ive changed, been manipulated.
i thought that ronnie was never going to come back
i dont listen, speak, laugh,    like i used to;
but yesterday. there seemed to be this spark in me
and it reminded me of what life was like back then
is it the new him. or music. or simply that ive successfully shift into this choking space?

regarding new him. means really nothing. i dont want anybody but you.
this other day. i was just going to say- three words, eight letters.