''and i don't want to change''

the saddest thing in life/what scares me
is change.

it used to be separation since i was little
the idea of separation is frightening
death. divorce. breakups.
but sometime, we get to control separation
we have solutions for breakdowns.


but change is inevitable.
and it seems to be the cause for almost everything
including separation.


in early 2009. i said, i don't want to change.
as if, you stupid bitch.
it's impossible
not matter how stubborn or old freak you are.
you will
your hair is falling, your eyes are blinking
your fingers are twitching

and thats why
the most amazing thing in life
is when you defy change
and hold on to things
i hope our friendship last forever :)