exposed.

i must admit that at this stage of my life
i'm still very naive about the world

i knew that since i was about 12
but at that time i didn't know why
i thought it was only experience that made me behind

but now i know it's sometimes about the exposure.

this month
i had been trying really hard to look for a good work experience placement
i thought i would at least get a yes when i sent out nearly 50 emails
turns out more than half didn't bother to reply
the two thirds of the half that replied said no
and the rest said they will reply me later. but still no reply.

it made me got a little closer to the adult world
the world
where if people don't need you, they abandon you
and if you really want something, you have to try your hardest
and even you think you've tried the hardest but you still don't get what you want,
you're not trying hard enough.

.

experience takes a bit of time
but maybe exposure is just an opportunity you have to hold on to

i like being exposed to different things
because
it makes your mind more open to the world
you know whats going on on the other side of the world
and most of the time the things fascinates me

sometimes the exposure made me realize what kind of friends i need
what attitude i should have
how should i see a person

to be honest
i really enjoy having art friends
because they always surprise you
and they impress you most of the time
and i really don't enjoy being with materialistic people
because they don't really know how to have fun
and all they live in is misery.

it's making me laugh that i've been thinking much i often type it down.