你

突然其來的衝動
讓我對他呼出最後一口氣
卻切底地失敗了

離開時
真的好想大喊
我好討厭你
卻真的好喜歡你。

雖然勇敢地決定跟他見面
可是最終還是不能夠把心裏的話講出來
我太不會通詞達理。

你究竟要我怎樣做才原諒我。

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FML.

很傻

突然對Mr. 起了興趣了
便好奇去看他們的MV
description 說 "When you get on a public transport, plug the ear phone and turn on the music player, somehow, songs will remind your memories and you will just keep thinking the pass and then see those pictures/persons in your mind."
很對
每次 聽到久違的favourite song 就會勾起很多回憶
因爲 favourite song 通常只會 favourite 一段時間
所以一聼到 那段時間發生的 都全會湧進腦海裏 喜怒哀樂
有時想到很傻的 會很想笑
"想得太多 失去了知覺 彷彿已做錯"
可是 縂有麻木的時候
"自己在惹禍 避開你是折磨"
很辛苦 就是不想想到 可是最後都會碰釘子
可能只是還未找到代替你的人吧
最近又在想念你了
片段來得越來越頻密
你還在學鼓嗎?
我很喜歡你打鼓的樣子
當日我代你向那位小姐說你停學的時候 你的理由 我都模糊了
我只記得我覺得很可惜
今天的你 深處還是以前的你嗎
直覺告訴我 你還在
可是 幾乎所有人都好像不太介意現在的你
我想 你應該不會回來的了
我，差不多，終于明白自己當天的決定了。
要用那麽長的時間 好笨
只懂逃避 更笨
我都明白了
但你已經不會再原諒我

真的真的好想你。

my new obsession.

it's been awhile since i last have a band obsession. last was metro station. haha i have never thought this would be in canto.

birthday

i must say. coming back has been great. i think im so happy now i cant think
i dont feel much but i think im happy, as in really happy.
seeing everyone is great. interact with people the way im used to is the greatest gift i can get from holiday.
sign i wish this can last longerrr.
by chance i got to see him in school
i was having this really weird moment in my mind
i would stare at him in distance while chatting with others, wondering what he is thinking, 'did he notice me?'
a few days ago when i was cleaning my drawers i found a birthday card and farewell card he gave me. i was stupid enough to not reply.
''sorry. but he doesnt want you anymore''
i got sorrys from erik and george.
why are you sorry?
you feel sorry for me?
i think. it doesnt worry me anymore. anyhow it has been a year or so.
what should be let go had been let go of.
the only things that left behind is memories.
he was a speical one.
anyway.
happy birthday.

i didn't about that before. even it was right here in hong kong.

learn to care.

the graphics are impressive i gotta say. the narration is not very good, but still, it's informative.

this is why i do vegetarian, i thought about vegan but it's gonna be hard when people cook for me most of the time.

and if you think this is pretty good, watch the other videos by them. and really think about what minor changes you can make for our home to last longer.

YOU PLAY ME?

friggin typhoon.
wasting my time. i was gonna do some pretty awesome stuff today. i had a dentist appointment and i hav to help nicolee with her dress and on and on.
dude, what am i doing now? blogging? you blog when you have nothing to do. and it's not supposed to happen in this holiday. im not supposed to blog.
anyway. whats done is done. im currently researching what eyeliner pencil i should buy. i feel like my ultimate proof eyeliner is too ultimate for daily use. it's hard to go off in any condition: water, humid weather but at the same time it's hard to be wiped off. ugh thats the worst part. especially the gap between lashes, it's just so ugh.
(while updating, it's down T3 hahahaha)
while looking through websites i discovered MAQUILLAGE x ALEXANDER WANG collection
:)))) one of the fav designers! ahhh even thou it's jus the package. i like it it's so urban mystical
ahh tempted! ohhh now that it's down T3 i prob should get ready. :)

inspiration number two.

hella yeah sienna.

jealousy

naw angela i hate you to the max.
everyones missing you.
everyone wrote your name on their pm. wrote notes for you.
where was mine when i left.
oh you should be so happy.

im jealous.
i really am.

still.

have fun in uk :) i'll miss you heaps.

another darling.

childhood.

this post is dedicated to angela
this girl who i first officially met in yr 5

also became my best friend in yr 5
stole my boyfriend in yr 7
is willing do all the things you can imagine unless she dies from it
has a famous saying in my memories: ''so? you wouldn't die from it"
has the blastest attitude ever ; so cheeky you just don't know what to say.
got back with her boyfriend in yr 6 again, that photo made me Laugh Out Loud.
got a tongue piercing that made me woah and kind of jealous >:D
got heaps of piercings on her ears
dyed her hair god knows how many times
used to be ultra long hair, now has it short.

and
will dwell in my memories.

angela
good luck in uk :) i will visit sometime. imy :))

our love-

i wanna i wanna i wanna touch you you wanna touch me too

"I can never read all the books I want; I can never be all the people I want and live all the lives I want. I can never train myself in all the skills I want. And why do I want? I want to live and feel all the shades, tones and variations of mental and physical experience possible in life. And I am horribly limited."
— sylvia plath

they got rid of the day when you learn to wear condoms.

so hours after i past it through
i feel so weird now
because people said i was
it was never really something weird or abnormal before
since god knows how long
i've been writing
to my old friends. willy. luke.
it was something significant
it's not text.not msn. not an email.
sometimes i think i come from the 90s or something
im so old school? at times im still so resistant to tech stuff
i dislike making friends through msn
it all seem so fake and virtual
sometimes i think it's the real talking that makes the difference
the face expression body language?

oh wells.
i hope this all get through.

human relations seemed like a day of flashback for me.

watching dela hang with the boys in the oval reminded me of george, jerry, willy and other guys playing soccer on the field
and all sorts of things
are giving me flashbacks

it's not depressing anymore.
but like peeling the layers of the skin.
it's wouldn't bleed yet, but it hurts.



yesss. three days to go.

boys-phobia!

I HATE MENSTRUAL CYCLE, PERIOD.
IM GETTING SUCH A BIG CRAVING IT'S NOT FUNNY.

like at dinner. i felt really hungry but i was actually really full. it left me feeling so full i wanted to pulk everything out.

now.
guess wht
IM HAVING V?!
yurh. wtf wtf wtf

okay.

aerobics routine done. it was pretty good overall. should've videoed it to make the awesomes laugh

went dance off just then.
i think i mgiht join next year. looked really fun :)
cant wait for ones in the holis

and human relations tomorrow
how gay.
ms rivett : so you get to know wht the guys are thinking
rockweger: some of the boys are really nice, some are just silly
as if i dont know?
like i come from whinyland hmmm?

anyway. good thing no classes.

hahhh

beat ittt.

so instead of shitting my geo response out
i went practice for my aerobics routine for pe tomorrow. the song is beat it haha sweet beat my UFO. once again proved my no sense of music D:
anyway it was a fun routine but it made me seriously miss yuuris routine so yeahhh looking forward to ones x 10.

im such a fool you know
i think
i actually kinda like him?
this is prob just illusion .

my mom took my phone card away so my aunt can call while she stays in melb
it seems such a torture to me.
what if he sends me something?
no he wont.


arghhhhh fml i dont wanna go to school tomorrow.



SO WHY DID YOU GET SICK ?

she reminds me of you, imy zoe :)

vogue paris sept 09.

sadface from the heart

lately i've been having strange sleep problems
i tend to wake up around 5 in the morning
so i did again this morning
as i was struggling to go back to sleep
my phone 'magically' vibrated (it' so rare nowadays it's magical)
anyway i searched for my phone amongst all the elmo and banana speaker and pillow
flippd my phone : "...i cant make it..."
i felt like i just fell from the top of IFC like





















that times infinity.
true he said he was sick. so i replied the 'it's alright' and got back to sleep
at 8 i realized i should wake up anyway to see nicole
but the lightness within me seem to have dissappeared so completely
i think i feel like crap.

pffttt.


p.s. i gave up to commenting. cbox thank you.

hot breakfast

"I’d rather see a woman dressed in clothes from the salvation army than in head to toe Chanel and Dolce, I think fashion is good beacause it’s about self expression." - Peaches Geldof

going gone

"i believe that everything happens for a reason. people change so that you can learn to let go, things go wrong so that you appreciate them when their right, you believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no-one but yourself, and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together"
marilyn monroe

UP & GO!

When's the last time you said you were sorry?
dont rmb.

Have you done anything interesting in the last week?
yes it was quite interesting. not excatly interesting but like..yeah.

Are there any songs you listen to everyday?
sorta like those ones on the top of my most played

What do you consider a waste of time?
lawl you remind me of the big convo me and luke had once in science in the library.

How do you react to stress?
i think alot.

Have you ever considered what you would do in certain life/death situations?
not really

Have you ever gone mud riding?
no

Do you edit your photos?
rarely but yes

What kind of cookie do you like the most?
those oats raison walnut ones from mrs fields

Do you enjoy working alone?
depends

Is there anyone you're not over and feel like you never will be?
yes. luke enough said. i dont think i'll love him forever, but i'll basically think that im partly responsible for ruining his life. i cant get over this.

Do you like long or short surveys?
depends

How often do you listen to your iPod?
pretty much everday

What kind of house do you want?
a cozy aging apartment in central

Would you like living on the coast?
no but i'd like that for a long vacation

What song was the last you listened to?
passion pit - sleepyhead

When's the last time you were really late to something?
idk

Do you prefer to take back roads or the highways?

How do you spell your name without consonants?
uh wait rnn, bhaah thats funny.

What's the last movie you watched?
i think it's transformers

What would you like your generation to change?
people are so up with the trends. like how they yay for in things and laugh at out things.

Do you use your cell phone a lot?
not really

When's the last time you saw an ocean wave?
idk

How long can you hold your breath?
fuck wod i know

Would you rather work behind the scenes or be the star?
behind the scnes

Are you a sore loser?
wht

When's the last time you used a pair of scissors?
idk

What was the last word you thought?
fag

Is it easy to make you angry?
no

Have you wondered if other people wonder what you're thinking?
yes. and i find that really cute

Do you sing a lot?
yes i sing everyday in the friggin assembly singing gay hemms

Do you think you have an addictive personality?
no. i wish i do

Which affects us more: our genes or the environment in which we're raised?
environment, period

Why do you believe that?
isnt it pretty obvious? those aussie girls start wearing pvc tights when they have a huge ass just because girlfriend or dolly whatever says it's cool.

Honestly, do you enjoy arguing?
yes i love it. the teasing type of arguing. it's amazzzing. haha.

Do you prefer to use tape or glue?
depends

Do you see routine as a comfort or a rut?
depends

When's the last time you cried?

Do you believe that love can get you through anything?
not really. but most things. like how not money can solve all problems but most.

What do you wish you had more of?
time and money and perhaps some love

If you HAD to change one thing about your best friend, what would it be?
his appearence.

Have you ever gone to sleep mad?
yeh

Do you like your computer?
could be betteer but yes I LOVE YOU COMPUTER!

Which theory do you wish but perhaps not believe was true about afterlife?
idk

Is there anyone that you truly could not live without?
my parents.

brain processing

i realized i've blogged intensive recently.

probs all the brain math needs to go somewhere.

xavier socials coming up this friday. going? hmm had to think about that. socials always give me very depressing aftermath. i think i desperately need a guy friend. thefact that ben or willy or wayne or jeffrey or even george is not here stabbs me real hard.

why did my parents send me to a girls school anyway? such a torture for a person like me.

when i was never brought up to be whiny brats screaming ohmygoddd every 5 seconds.

so now im gradually transforming into one.

im so interested to see my change by the end of year 12.

john paw gouti air?

jean paul gaultier.

i wonder why are my parents so uncool these days

they used to be pretty fashionable as i recall

my dad actually wears his perfume.

and my mom owns ferragamo varina etc

anyways.

if you havnt noticed

im not very into mainstream music

i know them, but i dont listen to them with intention.

reason: they are just so annoying. they are in the shops. on the radio arghhh fuck.

okay

so introducing.

VAN SHE

and CUT COPY

yes idk why they hav such similar pattern of name.

but yes i like them.

so go listen :)

it's better than some song by guy sebastian whatever.

by the wat

that day i got a little something for wayne but then i lost it on the way home. argh im such a failure :/ thats fine i'll go back and get it again. im planning to do major shopping for awesomes the coming weekend anyway.

10 DAYS and home. how exciting.