they got rid of the day when you learn to wear condoms.

so hours after i past it through
i feel so weird now
because people said i was
it was never really something weird or abnormal before
since god knows how long
i've been writing
to my old friends. willy. luke.
it was something significant
it's not text.not msn. not an email.
sometimes i think i come from the 90s or something
im so old school? at times im still so resistant to tech stuff
i dislike making friends through msn
it all seem so fake and virtual
sometimes i think it's the real talking that makes the difference
the face expression body language?

oh wells.
i hope this all get through.

human relations seemed like a day of flashback for me.

watching dela hang with the boys in the oval reminded me of george, jerry, willy and other guys playing soccer on the field
and all sorts of things
are giving me flashbacks

it's not depressing anymore.
but like peeling the layers of the skin.
it's wouldn't bleed yet, but it hurts.



yesss. three days to go.