birthday

i must say. coming back has been great. i think im so happy now i cant think
i dont feel much but i think im happy, as in really happy.
seeing everyone is great. interact with people the way im used to is the greatest gift i can get from holiday.
sign i wish this can last longerrr.
by chance i got to see him in school
i was having this really weird moment in my mind
i would stare at him in distance while chatting with others, wondering what he is thinking, 'did he notice me?'
a few days ago when i was cleaning my drawers i found a birthday card and farewell card he gave me. i was stupid enough to not reply.
''sorry. but he doesnt want you anymore''
i got sorrys from erik and george.
why are you sorry?
you feel sorry for me?
i think. it doesnt worry me anymore. anyhow it has been a year or so.
what should be let go had been let go of.
the only things that left behind is memories.
he was a speical one.
anyway.
happy birthday.