can this get any better?

i seriously have a good feeling about this.


"destiny" as Summer mentioned is making more sense than it ever had.

maybe weather does affect feelings.

felt terrible today.
how funny: one day you can be on top of the sky, next day you can drop dead on the cold concrete floor.


maybe tomorrow be another top of the sky.

it's been awhile but im still in love

OH (PAC)MAN, this is the sex.

love of life.

i dropped my mouth open. clap clap clap; ily tsin.

in the blood.

hey it's december.

The difference between school and life? In school, you're taught a lesson and then given a test. In life, you're given a test that teaches you a lesson.

-haze

OCD

never think by rob pattinson continues to be one of my favorite song.
when i feel mentally sick at times, i tend to listen to it non stop.
it seems be the most comforting thing besides a hug.

14 days left in jail.
cannot bare the fact that im wasting time just watching tv, packing, watching movies, blogging and facebook. or perhaps a bit of wii. i did spend some time shopping. it came to me there not much to do but shopping if i step out of house. i thought about yoga. or maybe some dance.










black and white or color?

終于

let go of you.

definitely won't miss you anymore, 100% sure.
it's been nearly a year
thank you for seeing me that day, it helped alot.

貪心

算我貪心
考試的日子祈求偷懶的機會
空閒的日子盼望可以有點作爲

記得小時候每天只會喊悶
不懂利用時間 交多個朋友 學多種運動 明多點事理

回頭望 光陰真的浪費了
該怎麽做呢 做更多去補償 還是接受過錯罷了

16 年已過
最近突然發現這一年像是老天爺的安排

一
失去了aishk 很傷心 像身體的一部分都消失了 不完整
這 會跟媽媽的 相似嗎

二
最要好的朋友都不在 變得好孤獨
卻變得好親媽媽
相處的時間多了 發現 媽媽真的好偉大

三
大開眼界了
理想一致的對手多了
發覺 也到時候要加把勁
順便報答下父母吧

四
好累 太多了 當nicole堅決的告訴我她會回去的時候 我都不太在乎了
下兩年 也許會很難捱
可是 如果能腦袋闖一下 也許是值得的


傻話。

angela might want a boyfriend with this.

maybe i was the trigger.

Police have arrested a 16-year-old boy suspected of blackmailing a fellow student at the Australian International School by threatening to post a video of her naked body on the internet.
The boy is one of two students expelled by the leading international school for suspected criminal offences and reported to police since the start of term on October 12, according to the school, which charges annual fees of up to HK$112,000.

Parents and students say the Kowloon Tong school has been rocked by the nude video incident and the expulsion of another 16-year-old boy for selling drugs, including marijuana and muscle-building steroids, to fellow students on campus.

A police spokeswoman said last night that a 16-year-old boy, who had been expelled from Australian International School, was arrested on Thursday night on suspicion of criminal intimidation and blackmail and had been released on bail.

The youth was also assisting police with their inquiries into a case of assault occasioning actual bodily harm that took place outside an international school on Wednesday night.
A police spokesman said the criminal intimidation and blackmail case had been reported to Kowloon City police station on October 27.

“It is alleged that a suspect threatened to publish naked images of a female on the internet unless he was paid money,” the spokesman said.

One parent, who asked not to be named, said the two cases were just the latest of four expulsions this year, with a Year 11 student thrown out in the spring for stealing a wallet and a Year 10 student with a record of troublemaking kicked out last term.

The father said his son had told him the student expelled for drugs was a big drugs supplier at the school and had approached him about muscle-building steroids, which could only be bought on prescription by adults.

The father said the school had just held an assembly warning students about the dangers of drug abuse, when a student in his son’s home group had threatened a girl with distributing a video clip, which showed her naked, to other students unless she paid him HK$2,000.

Students said the girl had stripped off at the Year 10 student’s request while they chatted over the internet on webcams and the boy had secretly recorded her, according to the father.
A girl in Year 12, who asked not to be named, said someone had uploaded the nude video onto the internet two weeks ago and some boys had also been watching it on their mobile phones and had been suspended. The girl in the video, who students said had been in a relationship with the expelled boy, had appeared more subdued following the incident, the Year 12 girl said.

Her friend, also in Year 12, said they both knew the 16-year-old boy, who had recently sought counselling for behavioural problems.

“We also saw him hitting a guy near our school on Wednesday,” she said.
Secondary principal Phil Waugh said: “Two students were expelled this term due to serious disciplinary breaches. Both of these have been of a criminal nature and have been appropriately reported to the police.

“Due to their ongoing investigations, and the need to protect students who have been affected by these incidents, we will not comment any further on these specific incidents.
“Our school does not tolerate criminal behaviour, particularly those that will compromise the welfare and education of others in a negative way. Our school is committed to providing students with a safe, supportive learning environment.”

Waugh said the school had addressed the issues with student year groups in collaboration with its student counsellor and parents, using a combination of reward, guidance and discipline.
The school would also be discussing the issue of criminal behaviour among students with “the other top-tier international schools”, to ensure that “we monitor the situation between our schools and collaborate on the best ways to combat any disturbing trends”.

Kenneth Chan Tsan-ming, an expert in juvenile behavioural problems at the Hong Kong Institute of Education, said the crime rate among young people in the city had gone down over the past three years but drug abuse among children of school age was growing.



luke pickering: you didnt have fucking to do that.


credit: angela, sarah.

4 days.

til my birthday.

it's so damn fast. i remember the time i said the same thing when i was probably 13/14.
now im going to 16.
once i got told, once you get 16, time will pass really really fast.
i really dont want that to happen.

im kind of scared
when i get to a certain age, perhaps i'll say the same thing like my mother: it feels like theres no time to waste.
i never really looked forward to this age. 16. sounds more like a burden to me.

i used to say i wanna grow up faster. now hold on, please slow down.

it's always good to be a child. the days are spent on incredibly addictive cartoon, plastic colorful toys, marathon phone calls, and so much more.
at this point of life. i might not be so immature or naive, but it wont be mature yet. im growing, and learning. looking back at the 16 years. i appriciated love from my dad, mom and my sister.

dad. you've always been the man for me. you taught me alot, from how to use the dvd recorder to what it's a good career for me, a thousands thank yous. your dynamic Kentdesign transforming from a toy design company to a commerical design company inspires me. thanks for everything. every single possesion of mine, exists because of you.

mom. your excellence in being mother is incredibly. you cook the best food, you've been a like filipino helper since we came to aus, your effort makes me speechless. thanks for all the care. although sometimes we share diffferent views. and i would think that you've been wrong decisions. it's acknowledged that you want the best for me.

sister. i've been a really bad sister when you were young. practically i was a bitch. i really enjoy time with you now. and mom and dad had made the right choice shooting you out to the world. because i'd be lonely as hell without you.

friends in aishk. i cant say im speechless. because seriously honestly none of the words in any language can describe how i feel. i really did think that, aishk is the best place of the world.

friends in plc. i might be a pain in the ass. due the channeling problem. i think im tuning it. not intentionally. but maybe you guys are slowly invading into me.

ON A BRIGHT SIDE.
HOW COULD ANYBODY NOT DESERVE A NICE PRESENT ON THEIR 16 BIRTHDAY
okay. like. not hint anything- dont misunderstand.

16 WISHLIST.

-summer fedora
- daydress (<< new obsession. tshirt dress, sleeveless dress, etc etc)
-yankees cap. the one with in blue and white font :)))
- beach top: those wide collar top basically
- boho skirt print prints prints!
-mesh/print top
- menstank: loose tank basically. i'd be nice with little details like pockets.
- metallic blue / met purple / white eyeliner
- bright red/ nude lipstick.

me greedy pig.

woohoo. IM GOIING SHOPPING LATERRR!

:)

be critical

i mean it. be critical.
i was never talented at drawing.
i never like drawing. actually i did when i was in primary school. but people laughed at my drawing then i gave up.
i rushed through these.
personally. i think they are excrement (crap). but whatever, i like opinions. because opinions let me know where i have to improve. and it would be greatly appriciated if you do be critical and comment/cbox.
p.s. im having trouble with the hair.
click to enlarge.

someone tell me if this is amanda s?

gangsta

One who willfully promotes and participates in destructive and self-serving culture in an effort to project a particular image of 'toughness' or to make oneself intimidating. Willingness to blatantly and horrifically misuse English is a necessity, as is a low IQ and sub-par education (or at least the appearance thereof).

symtoms - this is in general, there are always exceptions.
- live in their own world
- believe that all they need in the world is women and money
- believe that only hot women and their bros are the only species that exist in the world
- believe that it's so cool to screw their lives up
- proud of screwing their lives up
- thinks that violence is the way of life
- extremely low EQ

add more

armor

protects you from commitments.

i want a come back

i had a thing for these. still do til now :)

THE NAME IS MICHAEL CHEUNG.

since early year 10. yes you have become my inspiration.
i seem to be your ultimate ass kisser, jokes, but i really love you :)
you must ask my friends in plc. because i mention you quite alot.
i remember when i was too young and stupid to know anything. and i called you gay.
thats a thousand sorrys.
you are indescribable
with you. i feel so inferior. you actually beam! your talent, your passion makes me understand, to do what you want to do, to be who you want to be, you must give the fullest of yourself.
you have helped me endlessly and im not doing anything for myself. i think i should really start doing something for myself.
today, looking at your website. wow x 10

all the best in everything that comes in life.

www.themichaelcheung.com for those who dont know.

iwantyourhairsobadlyitsnotfunny

when there is road but you choose not to walk.

looking back from monday.
i dont think i've done much but pmsing.

since the day ben and i became friends
i have realized the great existance of my pms

how i feel really disorganised that there are so much to do and i'd just go really annoyed but i end up getting even less work done

which is the orginal reason how i got a planner, because it calms me down having to write down the things i have to do so i feel less disorganised and i can get a few things

ive been feeling really confused also recently
it's not just pms i think
it probably pms plus something
things around.
they add to my disorganisation

the fact that the ''awesomes'' in hong kong have still not bothered to get green day ticks is pisisng my vagina off. both nicole and me agree that they will never get how we'd kill to attend to concerts. simply because even there are so fucking many concerts out there in melb: we cant attend: school/boardinghouse/location speaks it all.

my dearest roomate have not been well. and it makes me angry. because sometimes i really feel like hitting her. actually hitting her. because she is basically the most stubborn person i've ever met.

stacking up with yaa. gosh give me a break. i have to say i love business. but this program is turning into complete hastle.

and squashing the tests and exams in. and the 2 textile project plus one art project.

only if a day has 48 hours wil i survive.

is something due today for science?

i have a feeling on that: oh crap.

anyway: i think the following statement is supposed to go on a twitter or a fb status.
whatevs

im feeling so out of inspiration, i feel as thou theres no blood flowing in my brain

save me :O

if the story between you and i were to be made reference for a movie.

this would be it.

the ikea part was terrible.

yet: became my new favourite movie: over juno.






























something i laughed so badly-

Tom: Paul, seriously...
Paul: Did you bang her?
Tom: No!
Paul: Blow job?
Tom: No!
Paul: Hand job?
Tom: No, Paul, no jobs. I'm still unemployed. We just kissed.


Tom: It's official. I'm in love with Summer.
Tom: I love her smile. I love her hair. I love her knees. I love how she licks her lips before she talks. I love her heart-shaped birthmark on her neck. I love it when she sleeps.

Tom: People don't realize this, but loneliness is underrated.

Tom: What happens when you fall in love?
Summer: You believe in that?
Tom: It's love, it's not Santa Claus.

George would call this Asian Pride

Looking through collections of 2010 rtw
Liu Wen has offically caught my eye.

It all started when i was looking at style.com > chanel > beauty
and there was this photo of Liu Wen smiling
i was caught. anaphylactic shock right that sec (i did not remember how to spell that word actually, i googled amphelitic shock for the corret spelling HAHA)

so main point is that, her name is on my list now.
because i rarely remember model names
and even if i do, i dont recgonise the faces
some i do of course like the really well known ones
but not for most.
it's pretty much a sin for a fashion junkie
but anyway

back to Liu Wen
idk. SECOND MOST ACTIVE GIRL ON SPRING 2010 RUNWAYS, what can i say?
70 shows in total, george yang, asian pride it is.
because of liu wen,
i became aware of chinese models.
Shu Pei Qin im aware of.
Du Juan of course, anymore? anybody?

okay whatevs. liu wen time.
i must say liu wen was not as shocking as she is supposed to be when shes on the runway.
cause she had to hide her KILLER SMILE most of the time
seriously, her smile is KILLER.
im jealous.

YES!

TRAGEDY

I ULTIMATELY FEEL SORRY FOR THAT GIRL.

wohohoo!

"Fat mummies sit there in front of the television with their chip packets and say skinny models are ugly," Karl Lagerfeld

this is wow wow wow wow

it'd be nice to have a boyfriend that dresses like that :)

yes yes yes yes

i need that.

channel chanel

i want chains tattoo right now. and the hair: im going to dye my hair in that color this december and try backcomb bun asap. yes yes yes yes.

p.s. i think the clogs were somewhat inspired by the olsens. either was wearing them early this year.

又在想你了

-

this is why kanye west goes better with rihanna

do the high fashion.

regardless of how she only wears black to nearly every show, shes a stunner. especially when shes not the stick type, she can still pull off this striped body con dress so damn well, fuckyourihanna-

edit- why are people saying that it's bad? i think it's goodass ?! (that means you hav a bad taste ronnie.) ohh.

you look so cute!

oh haha one thing i forgot to mention.
my haircut- erh im getting this full fringe. no side anymore. haha it's been awhile since i last had a full.

it's actually quite weird how the awesomes barely talked about it
and amongst the plcs is comments on how i look younger.
which i never really intend to happen.
because looking older allows me to do certain things.

worst part:
my full fringe had betrayed my style.
where the fuck did scene go?

my friend even said: you look cuter now, before it was all like rock n roll.

-sighhh- now i kinda want my side fringe back.

it wasnt any bad afterall. i liked it. but this seemed so much like a symbol to change.

the photography love

Scott from The Sartorialist and Garance from Garance Dore

cute: that they are holding cameras. (wait so that means while they are searching for fashion people to take photos they found each other and decided to stop and kiss on the street. hahh)

awkward: that garance dore is taller than scott schuman. i will never ever allow that happen to myself :/ BUT GARANCE DORE OUTFIT IS SO ADORABLE. -gasps-

RADDDDD!

something i can only afford decades after.

DELFINA DELETTREZ

skeleton hand bracelet

whatever that comes in the rest of 2009

woosh. it's back to plc. snap snap just like that.
but instead of whining about what ive done because it's a topic about boredom so it's def boring
i cant imagine how much i've missed fashion!
WOW. seriously. i never thought i'd missed it that much. all the blogs and websites.

throughout the entire holiday i must confess the only fashion related thing i did was shopping. plus a little magazine reading i guess.

i feel so outdated now.
BIG TO DO: catch up on fashion.
yes yes yes.
before all the exams come to haunt me.

--- haha i have so much to talk about ---

so ''what did you do in the holidays?"

wow. i think this the happiest holidays i've ever had so far since i went to plc.
no shit.

i mean. there was actually moments where my mind just go: ronnie, arent you just so so happy. dont you just hav the greatest friends of all time. onnn and onnnn.

yes i did so much every second was gold.

--- moving on again ---

i am, in a desperate urge of updating myself.

ciao.

你

突然其來的衝動
讓我對他呼出最後一口氣
卻切底地失敗了

離開時
真的好想大喊
我好討厭你
卻真的好喜歡你。

雖然勇敢地決定跟他見面
可是最終還是不能夠把心裏的話講出來
我太不會通詞達理。

你究竟要我怎樣做才原諒我。

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FML.

很傻

突然對Mr. 起了興趣了
便好奇去看他們的MV
description 說 "When you get on a public transport, plug the ear phone and turn on the music player, somehow, songs will remind your memories and you will just keep thinking the pass and then see those pictures/persons in your mind."
很對
每次 聽到久違的favourite song 就會勾起很多回憶
因爲 favourite song 通常只會 favourite 一段時間
所以一聼到 那段時間發生的 都全會湧進腦海裏 喜怒哀樂
有時想到很傻的 會很想笑
"想得太多 失去了知覺 彷彿已做錯"
可是 縂有麻木的時候
"自己在惹禍 避開你是折磨"
很辛苦 就是不想想到 可是最後都會碰釘子
可能只是還未找到代替你的人吧
最近又在想念你了
片段來得越來越頻密
你還在學鼓嗎?
我很喜歡你打鼓的樣子
當日我代你向那位小姐說你停學的時候 你的理由 我都模糊了
我只記得我覺得很可惜
今天的你 深處還是以前的你嗎
直覺告訴我 你還在
可是 幾乎所有人都好像不太介意現在的你
我想 你應該不會回來的了
我，差不多，終于明白自己當天的決定了。
要用那麽長的時間 好笨
只懂逃避 更笨
我都明白了
但你已經不會再原諒我

真的真的好想你。

my new obsession.

it's been awhile since i last have a band obsession. last was metro station. haha i have never thought this would be in canto.

birthday

i must say. coming back has been great. i think im so happy now i cant think
i dont feel much but i think im happy, as in really happy.
seeing everyone is great. interact with people the way im used to is the greatest gift i can get from holiday.
sign i wish this can last longerrr.
by chance i got to see him in school
i was having this really weird moment in my mind
i would stare at him in distance while chatting with others, wondering what he is thinking, 'did he notice me?'
a few days ago when i was cleaning my drawers i found a birthday card and farewell card he gave me. i was stupid enough to not reply.
''sorry. but he doesnt want you anymore''
i got sorrys from erik and george.
why are you sorry?
you feel sorry for me?
i think. it doesnt worry me anymore. anyhow it has been a year or so.
what should be let go had been let go of.
the only things that left behind is memories.
he was a speical one.
anyway.
happy birthday.

i didn't about that before. even it was right here in hong kong.

learn to care.

the graphics are impressive i gotta say. the narration is not very good, but still, it's informative.

this is why i do vegetarian, i thought about vegan but it's gonna be hard when people cook for me most of the time.

and if you think this is pretty good, watch the other videos by them. and really think about what minor changes you can make for our home to last longer.

YOU PLAY ME?

friggin typhoon.
wasting my time. i was gonna do some pretty awesome stuff today. i had a dentist appointment and i hav to help nicolee with her dress and on and on.
dude, what am i doing now? blogging? you blog when you have nothing to do. and it's not supposed to happen in this holiday. im not supposed to blog.
anyway. whats done is done. im currently researching what eyeliner pencil i should buy. i feel like my ultimate proof eyeliner is too ultimate for daily use. it's hard to go off in any condition: water, humid weather but at the same time it's hard to be wiped off. ugh thats the worst part. especially the gap between lashes, it's just so ugh.
(while updating, it's down T3 hahahaha)
while looking through websites i discovered MAQUILLAGE x ALEXANDER WANG collection
:)))) one of the fav designers! ahhh even thou it's jus the package. i like it it's so urban mystical
ahh tempted! ohhh now that it's down T3 i prob should get ready. :)

inspiration number two.

hella yeah sienna.

jealousy

naw angela i hate you to the max.
everyones missing you.
everyone wrote your name on their pm. wrote notes for you.
where was mine when i left.
oh you should be so happy.

im jealous.
i really am.

still.

have fun in uk :) i'll miss you heaps.

another darling.

childhood.

this post is dedicated to angela
this girl who i first officially met in yr 5

also became my best friend in yr 5
stole my boyfriend in yr 7
is willing do all the things you can imagine unless she dies from it
has a famous saying in my memories: ''so? you wouldn't die from it"
has the blastest attitude ever ; so cheeky you just don't know what to say.
got back with her boyfriend in yr 6 again, that photo made me Laugh Out Loud.
got a tongue piercing that made me woah and kind of jealous >:D
got heaps of piercings on her ears
dyed her hair god knows how many times
used to be ultra long hair, now has it short.

and
will dwell in my memories.

angela
good luck in uk :) i will visit sometime. imy :))

our love-

i wanna i wanna i wanna touch you you wanna touch me too

"I can never read all the books I want; I can never be all the people I want and live all the lives I want. I can never train myself in all the skills I want. And why do I want? I want to live and feel all the shades, tones and variations of mental and physical experience possible in life. And I am horribly limited."
— sylvia plath

they got rid of the day when you learn to wear condoms.

so hours after i past it through
i feel so weird now
because people said i was
it was never really something weird or abnormal before
since god knows how long
i've been writing
to my old friends. willy. luke.
it was something significant
it's not text.not msn. not an email.
sometimes i think i come from the 90s or something
im so old school? at times im still so resistant to tech stuff
i dislike making friends through msn
it all seem so fake and virtual
sometimes i think it's the real talking that makes the difference
the face expression body language?

oh wells.
i hope this all get through.

human relations seemed like a day of flashback for me.

watching dela hang with the boys in the oval reminded me of george, jerry, willy and other guys playing soccer on the field
and all sorts of things
are giving me flashbacks

it's not depressing anymore.
but like peeling the layers of the skin.
it's wouldn't bleed yet, but it hurts.



yesss. three days to go.

boys-phobia!

I HATE MENSTRUAL CYCLE, PERIOD.
IM GETTING SUCH A BIG CRAVING IT'S NOT FUNNY.

like at dinner. i felt really hungry but i was actually really full. it left me feeling so full i wanted to pulk everything out.

now.
guess wht
IM HAVING V?!
yurh. wtf wtf wtf

okay.

aerobics routine done. it was pretty good overall. should've videoed it to make the awesomes laugh

went dance off just then.
i think i mgiht join next year. looked really fun :)
cant wait for ones in the holis

and human relations tomorrow
how gay.
ms rivett : so you get to know wht the guys are thinking
rockweger: some of the boys are really nice, some are just silly
as if i dont know?
like i come from whinyland hmmm?

anyway. good thing no classes.

hahhh

beat ittt.

so instead of shitting my geo response out
i went practice for my aerobics routine for pe tomorrow. the song is beat it haha sweet beat my UFO. once again proved my no sense of music D:
anyway it was a fun routine but it made me seriously miss yuuris routine so yeahhh looking forward to ones x 10.

im such a fool you know
i think
i actually kinda like him?
this is prob just illusion .

my mom took my phone card away so my aunt can call while she stays in melb
it seems such a torture to me.
what if he sends me something?
no he wont.


arghhhhh fml i dont wanna go to school tomorrow.



SO WHY DID YOU GET SICK ?

she reminds me of you, imy zoe :)

vogue paris sept 09.

sadface from the heart

lately i've been having strange sleep problems
i tend to wake up around 5 in the morning
so i did again this morning
as i was struggling to go back to sleep
my phone 'magically' vibrated (it' so rare nowadays it's magical)
anyway i searched for my phone amongst all the elmo and banana speaker and pillow
flippd my phone : "...i cant make it..."
i felt like i just fell from the top of IFC like





















that times infinity.
true he said he was sick. so i replied the 'it's alright' and got back to sleep
at 8 i realized i should wake up anyway to see nicole
but the lightness within me seem to have dissappeared so completely
i think i feel like crap.

pffttt.


p.s. i gave up to commenting. cbox thank you.

hot breakfast

"I’d rather see a woman dressed in clothes from the salvation army than in head to toe Chanel and Dolce, I think fashion is good beacause it’s about self expression." - Peaches Geldof

going gone

"i believe that everything happens for a reason. people change so that you can learn to let go, things go wrong so that you appreciate them when their right, you believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no-one but yourself, and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together"
marilyn monroe

UP & GO!

When's the last time you said you were sorry?
dont rmb.

Have you done anything interesting in the last week?
yes it was quite interesting. not excatly interesting but like..yeah.

Are there any songs you listen to everyday?
sorta like those ones on the top of my most played

What do you consider a waste of time?
lawl you remind me of the big convo me and luke had once in science in the library.

How do you react to stress?
i think alot.

Have you ever considered what you would do in certain life/death situations?
not really

Have you ever gone mud riding?
no

Do you edit your photos?
rarely but yes

What kind of cookie do you like the most?
those oats raison walnut ones from mrs fields

Do you enjoy working alone?
depends

Is there anyone you're not over and feel like you never will be?
yes. luke enough said. i dont think i'll love him forever, but i'll basically think that im partly responsible for ruining his life. i cant get over this.

Do you like long or short surveys?
depends

How often do you listen to your iPod?
pretty much everday

What kind of house do you want?
a cozy aging apartment in central

Would you like living on the coast?
no but i'd like that for a long vacation

What song was the last you listened to?
passion pit - sleepyhead

When's the last time you were really late to something?
idk

Do you prefer to take back roads or the highways?

How do you spell your name without consonants?
uh wait rnn, bhaah thats funny.

What's the last movie you watched?
i think it's transformers

What would you like your generation to change?
people are so up with the trends. like how they yay for in things and laugh at out things.

Do you use your cell phone a lot?
not really

When's the last time you saw an ocean wave?
idk

How long can you hold your breath?
fuck wod i know

Would you rather work behind the scenes or be the star?
behind the scnes

Are you a sore loser?
wht

When's the last time you used a pair of scissors?
idk

What was the last word you thought?
fag

Is it easy to make you angry?
no

Have you wondered if other people wonder what you're thinking?
yes. and i find that really cute

Do you sing a lot?
yes i sing everyday in the friggin assembly singing gay hemms

Do you think you have an addictive personality?
no. i wish i do

Which affects us more: our genes or the environment in which we're raised?
environment, period

Why do you believe that?
isnt it pretty obvious? those aussie girls start wearing pvc tights when they have a huge ass just because girlfriend or dolly whatever says it's cool.

Honestly, do you enjoy arguing?
yes i love it. the teasing type of arguing. it's amazzzing. haha.

Do you prefer to use tape or glue?
depends

Do you see routine as a comfort or a rut?
depends

When's the last time you cried?

Do you believe that love can get you through anything?
not really. but most things. like how not money can solve all problems but most.

What do you wish you had more of?
time and money and perhaps some love

If you HAD to change one thing about your best friend, what would it be?
his appearence.

Have you ever gone to sleep mad?
yeh

Do you like your computer?
could be betteer but yes I LOVE YOU COMPUTER!

Which theory do you wish but perhaps not believe was true about afterlife?
idk

Is there anyone that you truly could not live without?
my parents.

brain processing

i realized i've blogged intensive recently.

probs all the brain math needs to go somewhere.

xavier socials coming up this friday. going? hmm had to think about that. socials always give me very depressing aftermath. i think i desperately need a guy friend. thefact that ben or willy or wayne or jeffrey or even george is not here stabbs me real hard.

why did my parents send me to a girls school anyway? such a torture for a person like me.

when i was never brought up to be whiny brats screaming ohmygoddd every 5 seconds.

so now im gradually transforming into one.

im so interested to see my change by the end of year 12.

john paw gouti air?

jean paul gaultier.

i wonder why are my parents so uncool these days

they used to be pretty fashionable as i recall

my dad actually wears his perfume.

and my mom owns ferragamo varina etc

anyways.

if you havnt noticed

im not very into mainstream music

i know them, but i dont listen to them with intention.

reason: they are just so annoying. they are in the shops. on the radio arghhh fuck.

okay

so introducing.

VAN SHE

and CUT COPY

yes idk why they hav such similar pattern of name.

but yes i like them.

so go listen :)

it's better than some song by guy sebastian whatever.

by the wat

that day i got a little something for wayne but then i lost it on the way home. argh im such a failure :/ thats fine i'll go back and get it again. im planning to do major shopping for awesomes the coming weekend anyway.

10 DAYS and home. how exciting.

FML

Do you think some celebrities deserve their fame?
no not really. whats paris hilton doing?

Do you think there will ever be a cure for cancer?
yeah. i know my friends will find it :)

When do you want to get married and have kids?
when i found someone i well and truly love?

Don't you wish they still played 'Boy Meets World' on TV?
no

Are there any good surveys anymore?
guess so

Would you rather be pale and healthy or tan and possibly get skin cancer?
pale and healthy fo sho

Are there any cities you really want to visit (that you haven't before)?
yes yes yes new york stockholm and more.

Do you think you and your best friend(s) will be best friends forever?
yes. HEAR THAT BEN?

Do you think you may have met your soulmate?
nope. me and ben had nothing , nothing i clarified once more, nothing. hahhh dont worry he knows that.

Who do you like/love?
i love your mom to the max.

Do you think you have good fashion sense?
good enough than the majority. actually i might just that i dont express it because it's so unfortable.

Have you seen your favorite band more than once?
unfortunately no.

Do you ever talk to yourself?
physically it's been quite awhile it was like last year? or last last year?
mentally sometimes

Do you baby talk to your pet?
no :S

Do you treat your pets better than you do people?
no i treat my dog like a phycho

Do you go see a lot of movies in the theater?
i wish i do. or say, not anymore.

What do you think is your best personality trait? Worst?
straight forward. best for people who hates two side bitches. worst for people who cant take anything with 1% of cruelty

What do you think is you best physical trait? Worst?
honest honestly. i dont think i hav a best physical trait. worst: my legs enough said.

Do you collect anything?
tram tickets

Do you do any 'old lady' hobbies (knitting, crocheting, etc)?
not that im aware of

Where do you work (if you have a job)?
no

What do you plan on going to college for?
public relations or fashion design

Would you ever volunteer for something?
yes in fact im volunteering for a fashion show this october.

so wtf is this?

1. Do you eat rice? yeurrr?
2. Has someone cried on your shoulder or in your presence in the past week? not that i know of.
3. Do you often feel like you don't belong? yes yes yes yes.
4. How exactly would one 'talk with their hips'? how would i know? ask shkyra? is that how you spell her name? no i dont care about her shes gay.
5. What is the randomest thing you've googled? okay i typed how to and see what's on the top of the list and it's how to kiss so me and ben just looked at like the stuff and we lawl so badly
6. Do you watch Chelsea Lately? huh you talking about soccer or what
7. Have you eaten Shumai? yup
8. Do you know what fina'denne is? no
9. Is there a person, that no matter how badly they hurt you, you always seem to forgive them? no. but the person who should answer this question is ben because that'd be me.
10. What is one food you like, that others seem to hate? idk
11. What is the longest period of time you've been away from home? two terms?
12. Do you think Andy Samberg is funny? idk
13. Didn't watching Slumdog Millionare make you sad? not really. i like the movie thou
14. For Christmas, you can only buy a gift for one friend, which friend would you pick, and why?ben no questions asked.
15. What would go buy in a candy store? idk those you know sugar coated red tapes ?
16. While listening to music, do you listen to songs on random, or you choose the order? depends if i feel like it
17. Do you save old letters, invitations, and cards? yes
18. Are you sad that Michael Jackson died? no just astonished and felt kinda sorry
19. Are you sad that Farrah Fawcett died? im okay.
20. To be successful in life, are you willing to do whatever it takes? define successful.
21. If you make surveys, where do you questions come from? my brain?
22. Would you be embarassed if you had to graduate a year late? yes very.
23. Don't you get irritated when people sign in and out of msn, and their username keeps popping up? yes
24. In your opinion, what band has the coolest name? idk they are cool most of the time. actually i find metro station relatively cooler than click five or all time low. actually cobra starship is relatively cool as well
25. Do you like your muffin buttered? bahhaha mean girls. nice

because facebook is blocked

nicole's long weekend.