lazy morning

it's friday morning
and i know i have a lot of work on my palms
which i believe i would never get them done
"im sorry? but working hard aint my thing?"
i wish i can say that out loud.

these are the things my hands are holding on to
so heavy my fingers would probably be ripped down the next few hours
- science report
- math test
- buisness plan
- geography extended response
i'm sorry i know compared to year 11 and 12 im talking shit
but im feeling relatively lazy today

and never in the morning have i not done my routine yet still blogging.

it's actually very hard convincing yourself to work
when you dislike the place
what are you working for?
why are you working?

i mean. if i have this assignment to hand in for textiles
i'd say, it's for my future because i like fashion and it'd like to hard work for it

what about geography? hmmm?
and science??
i dont think i need to use geography extended response ever in the next 20 years of my life.
if i do, i'll chop my fingers off for you.
i like science. but reports get on my nerves.
well everybody who cares and read here knows perfectly well, i will never ever write a science report again after year 12. try me.

i want

edit

so lets go back to 2008 in ones

the very first time i saw someone wore a YSL tshirt.. to dance?!

i went, wtf?

reason: that YSL tshirt is going to have contact with

1. yucky sweats (duh because we dance?)

2. dirty floor ( we lie on the floor a lot when we do stretches)

personally i believe that 1 and 2 only is well enough to call that person, a spoiled brat.

but anyways, YSL tshirt is becoming inevitable for me.

i used to think that it makes money out of the logo (like how bape does) but no. everytime it seems to be conveying something. for RIP YSL is my favourite but i found the WHYSL is really cute.

or am i cursed with the love for branded things. even it's just a tshirt? i dont know.

we are miles away.

it's been awhile since i wrote.
the last few posts was simply pictures and little words.

time seemed to have past more quickly than earlier this year, but still it's slower than i ever experienced.

on friday i wrote a post. but i wasn't sure whether i should post it
oh wells

the burn on my hand is starting to heal
hopefully there wont be a scar
dad and elsie seemed to be more concerned about this more than i do
true, a scar on the back of your hand is not a very good sight
but it will remind me things that i learnt but seem to forget in a very daily basis.
it's just that
when you hurt somebody, no matter how hard you apologize or try to fix it. there will always be a scar left behind and there is no way (i mean duh unless you do some laser surgery) the scar will dissappear.

this is what i wrote on friday.
just finished watching caucasian chalk. felt that i have completely wasted 12aud.
which in a way if i convert it, i can get a h&m tshirt or something.

while trying to resist from being bored, i realized that today you seemed to have appeared in the scenes of my brain more often than usual.

this is the one post out of my entire blog i wish that you will really read by chance.
i do not dare to hope, because things between us have blurred into unknown long ago.

your friend asked me a rather strange question yesterday, 'do you miss him?'
and i told him, 'in a way yeh but i wont'

i dont know the reason for that answer. i just thought it'd be the best thing to say, or do i just thought you'd like me to say that.

but today i was missing you
and it came to me that you were the person that brought me to the wonders of the world the imagination that you hated after the day we seperated.

we have both changed. and maybe if we see each other again, it'd be like seeing a stranger.

i wrote so many letters that were left piled on the top of my shelf
i feared that you will trash them before you finish reading them
i feared that you will hate me even more

but what was i supposed to do?
every word you said. everything we've done. every look on your face. replays continuously through my head like motion pictures.

"so much that none of the words in any languages can describe how i feel."




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one word: lawl.

i can never be a fashion illustrator.

click me

the clock is ticking

you never fail to impress me

mitchell davis.

lessons

給孩子的備忘錄
我兒:
寫這備忘錄給你，基於三個原則：
(一）人生福禍無常，誰也不知可以活多久，有些事情還是早一點說好。
(二）我是你的父親，我不跟你說，沒有人會跟你說。
(三）這備忘錄里記載的，都是我經過慘痛失敗得回來的體驗，可以為你的成長省回不少冤枉路。

以下，便是你在人生中要好好記住的事：
（一） 對你不好的人，你不要太介懷，在你一生中，沒有人有義務要對你好，除了我和你媽媽。至於那些對你好的人，你除了要珍惜、感恩外，也請多防備一點，因為，每個人做每件事，總有一個原因，他對你好，未必真的是因為喜歡你，請你必須搞清楚，而不必太快將對方看作真朋友。
（二） 沒有人是不可代替，沒有東西是必須擁有。看透了這一點，將來你身邊的人不再要你，或許失去了世間上最愛的一切時，也應該明白，這並不是甚麼大不了的事。
（三） 生命是短暫的，今日你還在浪費著生命，明日會發覺生命已遠離你了。因此，愈早珍惜生命，你享受生命的日子也愈多，與其盼望長壽，倒不如早點享受。
（四） 世界上並沒有最愛這回事，愛情只是一種霎時的感覺，而這感覺絕對會隨時日、心境而改變。如果你的所謂最愛離開你，請耐心地等候一下，讓時日慢慢沖洗，讓心靈慢慢沉澱，你的苦就會慢慢淡化。 不要過分憧憬愛情的美，不要過分誇大失戀的悲。
（五） 雖然，很多有成就的人士都有受過很多教育，但並不等如不用功讀書，就一定可以成功。你學到的知識，就是你擁有的武器。人，可以白手興家，但不可以手無寸鐵，緊記！
（六） 我不會要求你供養我下半輩子，同樣地我也不會供養你的下半輩子，當你長大到可以獨立的時候，我的責任已經完結。以後，你要坐巴士還是Benz，吃魚翅還是粉絲，都要自己負責。
（七） 你可以要求自己守信，但不能要求別人守信，你可以要求自己對人好，但不能期待人家對你好。你怎樣對人，並不代表人家就會怎樣對你，如果看不透這一點，你只會徒添不必要的煩惱。
（八） 我買了十多二十年六合彩，還是一窮二白，連三獎也沒有中，這證明人要發達，還是要努力工作才可以，世界上並沒有免費午餐。
（九） 親人只有一次的緣份，無論這輩子我和你會相處多久，也請好好珍惜共聚的時光，下輩子，無論愛與不愛，都不會再見。

你的爸爸

i miss that guy on the left

funny terry richardson visited hong kong so long ago. those pictures looked so priceless.

mom said, "you have way to many tshirts!"

hey blair where's your red tights and bow headbands?

must say i really like this. gossip girl fashion way to go :)

I LOVE YOU SASHA

he reminds me of 方大同

i like.

shiying just came back from hangout

love love love love love