ohmybuddha!

five gold stars.

i feel like stealing one of my daddy's pants now

f- thesartorialist

comfort

i quite, feel like making a music video for this.

the invisible fuel

"i absolutely, wholeheartedly think that everyone should follow their dreams. "
By Johanna Torell her blog here.

this is nicole

my only amusement in the week.

my boots

Lace up boots have been on the list for a really long time. I haven't really decided whether I should buy them or not. Middle of last year I was really addicted to the patent shocking pink doc martens. It was quite a splurge so I waited and the love faded. But lace up boots reminded on the list. And now I am pretty sure they will end up in my closet because it's still on the list = i still want them bad. Can't wait to go to the big big doc martens store in LONDON IN 9 FUCKING DAYS, teehee.

exposed.

i must admit that at this stage of my life
i'm still very naive about the world

i knew that since i was about 12
but at that time i didn't know why
i thought it was only experience that made me behind

but now i know it's sometimes about the exposure.

this month
i had been trying really hard to look for a good work experience placement
i thought i would at least get a yes when i sent out nearly 50 emails
turns out more than half didn't bother to reply
the two thirds of the half that replied said no
and the rest said they will reply me later. but still no reply.

it made me got a little closer to the adult world
the world
where if people don't need you, they abandon you
and if you really want something, you have to try your hardest
and even you think you've tried the hardest but you still don't get what you want,
you're not trying hard enough.

.

experience takes a bit of time
but maybe exposure is just an opportunity you have to hold on to

i like being exposed to different things
because
it makes your mind more open to the world
you know whats going on on the other side of the world
and most of the time the things fascinates me

sometimes the exposure made me realize what kind of friends i need
what attitude i should have
how should i see a person

to be honest
i really enjoy having art friends
because they always surprise you
and they impress you most of the time
and i really don't enjoy being with materialistic people
because they don't really know how to have fun
and all they live in is misery.

it's making me laugh that i've been thinking much i often type it down.

CONFIDENCE

A few days ago, Michael Cheung helped me type up my CV for work experience. He did a really good job. Before we said goodbye online he said to me, 'just be yourself, CONFIENCE.' and I smiled at him even he wont be able to see my face.

I remember two years ago there was a dance perforemce of him, julia, louise and kiki. He stood out. He was the one with the passion, he was the one people kept their eyes on.

I would love to know this person forever.

For some reasons, he was in and out of my inspiration book. And for this time, I would like to keep him in the book for the rest of my life.

He is truly my great inspiration. He is artsy, creative, confience, fierce. He creates great art, and I could see a great future waving at him.

Because of him, from now on, if i feel like a total loser, if i question my dreams, if i feel like im going to give up on what i've always loved, i will secretly shout to myself, CONFIDENCE.

I think, if I ever happen to become what I wanted to be, I will remember the day Michael Cheung gave me confidence.

good times

I happened to borrow the scanner from m.arts to scan some polaroids from last year. And I had this long deep silent sign in my heart. Wondering why I didn't treasure last year as much as I should have. Last year has been the best time of my life. Although there were very depressing downs, it has made me recognized the amazing ups. Not until now that I realized many people around me are actually very influential. I'm guessing that maybe my 'creative' ideas, randomness, and artsy elements are all inspired by them. But now I'm here, some parts of me seemed to be losing their colors. I went speechless the week before when I read the shirt my awesomes wrote on. Shiying wrote:You are fucking amazing so don't change who you are. Ironically, the famous retarded Shiying has written the most heart stabbing phrase. This will be one of the quotes that I will bring along as I grow.

I miss you all, awesomes.

happy combo

Last week I got addicted to european fashion I haven't stopped looking at blogs and websites. The simplest items have made the largest statement. Nina Garcia called it 'The Kate Moss Factor'. The outfit is so effortless, I could tell by one eye what she is wearing: a grungy tshirt, pegged skinny jeans and nerd glasses. But it's just as if she has casted a spell on herself, it's so simple yet interesting. If I see her on the street, I would turn my head and keep looking.


I realised legs have successfully made the major impact. The leg revealing and spray on effect is currently invading the continent. Well, cant blame them for all having tall and thin figures. Sometimes i think even boys do it better. The skinny jeans and big shoes combo often fascinates me more than mcdonalds happy meal.