聼你唱歌的時候

我會想你是不是在傳達些什麽。

一種愛情
不用說 不用聽 不用看 不用觸摸
只要感受。

感受
最真實的證據
 

it's been awh;le

 

Burberry Prorsum Spring 2011

spot on

The way the system works now, you see the clothes, within an hour or so they’re online, the world sees them. They don’t get to a store for six months. The next week, young celebrity girls are wearing them on red carpets. They’re in every magazine. The customer is bored with those clothes by the time they get to the store. They’re overexposed, you’re tired of them, they’ve lost their freshness, you see somebody wearing it and you say, “Oh, that’s that jacket that was in blah, blah, blah, blah, blah.” Or [a] customer doesn’t want to wear that jacket that was in blah, blah, blah, blah, blah. In addition, all of the fast-fashion companies that do a great job, by the way, knock everything off. So it’s everywhere all over the streets in three months and by the time you get it to the store, what’s the point?
tom ford. i pay you my highest respect.

''and i don't want to change''

the saddest thing in life/what scares me
is change.

it used to be separation since i was little
the idea of separation is frightening
death. divorce. breakups.
but sometime, we get to control separation
we have solutions for breakdowns.


but change is inevitable.
and it seems to be the cause for almost everything
including separation.


in early 2009. i said, i don't want to change.
as if, you stupid bitch.
it's impossible
not matter how stubborn or old freak you are.
you will
your hair is falling, your eyes are blinking
your fingers are twitching

and thats why
the most amazing thing in life
is when you defy change
and hold on to things
i hope our friendship last forever :)

seduction

never really had to be about flashin.

photographer- Krzysztof Wyżyński

and you think that fashion is only about pretty dresses

To me, the most exquisite fashion credit I can remember in my lifetime was the day of [President Obama's] inauguration, when Michelle walked the parade route in that greenish-yellow Isabel Toledo dress. Because this was a real moment in which fashion, and quite directional fashion, played a role. When I think about the project of T and the Times, I think about that. I think about fashion outside of the studio and fashion that lives on the street. It doesn't mean you're going to repeat that moment, but I do think there's a way in which you can make lifestyle choices seem pertinent to the way we experience the world, and you can draw those connections in a magazine. Sally Singer

get things straight

things i really want (need) to do right now.


1. grow some nails. i want to wear nail polish okay?

2. grow hair. i want them long, period. im sick of having experimental fringe. i think i need to stick with just one stylist at a time. and i need to at least try to avoid crappy stylist. i think i should save up for better stylists here.

3. lose some weight. i just want skinner legs. do you find it wrong?

4. eat healthier. i can feel that my blood flooded with poisions. (my life is all about chocolate and sweet shits now)

5. sleep better. i cant bare to look at myself in front of the mirror. horror. even my english teacher nodds.

6. learn about menswear. very very fascinating. i think i need a friend on that?

7. experiment on cameras. it's getting very boring with clicking on semi auto mode. kids are catching up fast these days.

8. save up for a new ipod. i think the lamma rain killed it. no a nano is not good enough.

9. get willy to develop my funsaver and diana photos. my heart is itching like foot okay?

10. fly home. (impossible)

11. see you.
 
newly added.
 
12. clean up room.
 
13. make inspiration pin ups
 
14. clean up email inbox
 
15. make a list of things for dad to bring to aus from hk
 
16. arrange postage for stuff i bought online
 
17. get my L.
 
18. prepare presents for the bitches. nicolee, angela, shiying. shit it's september already?
 
19. finalise designs. make them.

stop lying to youself

this is insane. can i have a boyfriend like this?

i need a change

yes?

漣漪

在平靜水面上, 微風吹來激起的細浪 
經常用來形容心理細微的活動... 
比如被某件小事激起心中的漣漪... 
漣漪，就是水面被風吹起來的皺紋、波紋。


好美的一個詞語

發覺自己對中文有一種特別的感覺；寫中文，有如談戀愛。


英文，到現在還是很陌生。好像一個認識了很久，不過又不太熟的朋友。

11am finds

can we watch this together sometime?

a bigger splash

"What an artist is trying to do for people is bring them closer to something, because of course art is about sharing: you wouldn't be an artist unless you wanted to share an experience, a thought."

it's all known

i sold my h&m overalls.

quite sad thinking back. but i know i wont really wear it anymore.

copenhagen

unexplained.

I really thought I was OK
I really thought I was just fine
But when I woke this time
There was nothing to take me back to sleep
To take you off my mind
This time

I keep saying
Over and over and over and over again
Let it rain
Let it rain
Over and over and over and over again
Let it rain
Let it rain

I need to hide within the storm
So have the lightning come
And bring the winds that scream
And spill the fog all over town
And hold me in your stand-still ground

And I will sink down
And you'll be washed away
You'll be washed away

Over and over and over and over again
Let it rain
Let it rain
Over and over and over and over again
Let it rain
Let it rain

I really thought I was OK
I really thought I was just fine
But when I woke up this time
There was nothing to take you off my mind

Over and over and over and over again
Let it rain
Let it rain
Over and over and over and over again
Let it rain
Let it rain

I need to hide within the storm
So have the lightning come
And bring the winds that scream
Spill the fog all over town
And break through every door
Strip away the trees
And raise the rivers high
Just help me drown

And hold me in your stand-still ground
And I will sink
And you will be washed away
You'll be washed away

bleached brows

i know im not a good photographer.

but i love photopraphy.

precisely, strictly, the old scool photography.

i wish i hate food 2.0

memories lost in auditorium.

I SAW ABBEY LEE KERSHAW YESTERDAY.

in camberwell market. we were like, one metre away, face to face.
i think she can tell that i can recognise her.
i can tell by her bangs. her eyes. her nose piercing. her jawline. her height. and her skinnyness. her style.
and her home is in melbourne. so it makes sense.
but no. i didnt ask for a photo. or an autograph.
feels so retarded to do so. thou i kind of want to. haha. wish i was braver.
good to see you. you are one of my favourites.
how cool is it, to meet you by chance.
i've never even bump into my friends by chance, wahahaha.

awang fw 10/11

ace

forever.

plasticity

It’s unfortunate that we live in such a panicked, dysmorphic society where women don’t even give themselves a chance to see what they’ll look like as older persons. I want to have some idea of what I’ll look like before I start cleaning the slates. I want my kids to know when I’m pissed, when I’m happy, and when I’m confounded. Your face tells a story … and it shouldn’t be a story about your drive to the doctor’s office.
Julia Roberts

i lack confidence

A lot of my pieces are about easy seductiveness and accessibility in terms of showing skin. I've been speaking to a lot of women in their forties and fifties and they want to look sexy — I think it's quite a new thing and at the moment, there isn't a lot out there for them. Seductiveness isn't just for girls in their twenties anymore.
Joseph Altuzarra

i miss summer

沒有四個月

其實我很希望你在某情況下，會來這個blog
看看我的近況，看看有沒有抱恙，
我並沒有期望你無聊或有空的時候就來
我知道你是不會的 你還是對你的遊戲比較有興趣
試過好幾次 當我寫完一大篇垃圾，再等多幾個小時，我就會自動叫你來
不過...我想我這次真的不會
就讓這成為一個小試驗吧。


我們分開 都好幾個星期了
可能練習得多，裝得挺好，也騙到人
不過我的思緒其實一直都沒有離開過你
心 還是很沈重 也很痛，是很痛很痛的那種
我曾經也騙過自己
找來一大堆安慰自己的理由
- 他不是說他還喜歡你嗎？
- 小男生都是愛自由，不愛被綑綁的...
- 單親家庭，會明白感情嗎？
- 他把朋友和女朋友之間的界線模糊了...


不過最後，我還是明白
很簡單，你根本已經不愛我了。
你說你是喜歡我，不是愛我
如果你跟我說好朋友跟女朋友沒差 喜歡與愛也沒差
我會說 當你真的愛一個人，你是會介意的
你知道為甚麼會有女朋友這回事嗎？
因為女朋友只需要一個 那是一個特別的位置
為甚麼要跟個朋友分開 盡量避開，不見面就行
但是跟女朋友分開 要來個分手的儀式？
因為女朋友是伴侶 你們是一對的
朋友通常是一班 而不是一對
你明白麼？
我不可以曖曖昧昧的跟你當朋友，因為很多事，只是留給那一個人
如果你認為可以，我覺得你並不專重角色這東西
想想，如果你跟幾個好朋友都是這樣，其實就像一個player
或者你可以說我不喜歡分享
男女朋友，不只是抱抱輕輕的，當愛情被燃燒完，就只剩下感情
感情，不需要抱抱輕輕，也可以的。
那天我去觀禮，才發覺，原來結婚誓詞，是那麼貼切的形容感情


無論安樂困苦，豐富貧窮，健康衰弱，你都愛護她，安慰她，尊重她，保護她，專一於她，終生不渝


我不是想把我們拉到結婚去
只是 兩個人，日子久了，就只會剩下這些。 要明白，我們又第一次在一起到現在，都七年了
某程度上，那位相處了很久的另一半，也自然成爲你最好的朋友
可惜到現在，有很多事，你都不會告訴我，好像覺得我沒有必要知道，
甚至那個最後的決定，你也是在毫無預告的情況下告訴我。


理性地，其實我覺得你非常自私
不過 我很清楚我自己已經愛你到一個，'我根本不懂去恨你自私' 的地步
我很樂於接受你的不好；每次生氣/失望的時候，我還是很想抱住你
而可笑的是，到我終于明白什麽叫做‘當你喜歡一個人，你會接受他的一切’
你渺渺因為覺得這端關係無形，輕易放棄了


我不會強求，只要是你想做的，我都不想爲難你


但我可以很肯定的告訴你，無論發生甚麼事，我從來也沒想過放棄
因爲我曾經相信，我們七年來，情還沒有難，是很奇妙的事
我很珍惜我們的一切，更想過要一直這樣下去
未來的影像，本來慢慢都是你的


我承認我很老土，喜歡執子之手，與子皆老這一套


不過那可是你令我明白的 怎麽事情就那麽諷刺


你最近還好嗎?
我會等你的...就算多久也好，因爲，你比誰都重要
就算我跟別人在一起，我也會想念你，你我有過的，實在太多。

my parents used to pat my mouth when i do ''ahhhhh''

and it will become ''wah wah wah wah wah wah wah"

my hero-

consumerism

Sometimes I think the people who buy our clothes live in a parallel universe. Hell, we can't even afford our clothes.
- Proenza Schouler Lazaro Hernandez

yoshitomo nara yowel

can someone get me this? like seriously?

i miss the rawr times.

see more here.

for nishafoo !

sometimes i really love my fb status.

July 10
某人說: 香港，一年小變，三年一大變。離開半年，elements外的哥爾夫球場被拆，sogo三樓鋪位被改動，很多一切，在沒有被目擊的情況下，變了。這個地方，突然有點陌生，令人感到害怕。就像自己的家，牆壁被翻新，傢俬被換走，你仍然懵然不知。

July 12
那種態度，風格，好像慢慢被循規蹈矩/盲目/沉悶的環境沖洗。很想念自己畫著粗粗的眼綫，狂妄自大的時光。究竟我是什麽時候變得那麽怕事？最近的記憶，似乎有點暗淡。

July 15
很想回家 很想過夏天 很想跟你們去海灘 很想聼到地鐵的廣播 很想看到你的臉 很想抱住你 很想食牛奶公司 很想跟你逛街 很想逛街 很想照相 很想喝珍珠奶茶 很想置身崇光對面的大馬路 很想去機鋪打交 很想跟你們不眠不休的暢談...

July 23
希望明天可以是一個新的開始。不要再哭到眼睛不能眨，把你抛到後腦去就是了。

July 26
很想兩年前的一夜。我們九龍公園聚集，佐敦遊蕩，別人家喧嘩，直下彌敦道，西洋菜街漫步，觀看紋身，流連糖水鋪。你可以說那是很久以前的事，不過，仍然是很快樂的一夜。那種快樂，跟你們在一起才會有。那種快樂，不是短暫的，到現在回想，心臟還是會哼歌。再來一回？

herro martens.

theres this word i used to use alot

how rad is this, hellokitty and dr martens?

jeremy scott you got me again.

it's just- really really beautiful.

you wouldnt

父母告訴我有多幸福，能擁有這 這 這 這 這，還有這，
其實，我只想自由，只想獨個兒生活，只想離開你們。
我寧願過節儉的草根生活，也不想每天給精神折磨
你們根本不知道我在想甚麼，就算我如何解釋，也是浪費力氣
反正都只剩下一年半，捱完，一切就是我的

Why Does Crying Give You a Headache?

When humans experience extreme emotions, such as happiness or sadness, crying can occur. Crying itself occurs when the brain signals the tear ducts to produce tears, which helps the body to reduce stress hormone levels. When people cry due to stress or sadness, a headache often can accompany this action.

Crying due to stress or sadness releases certain kinds of stress hormones from the body. These hormones can cause other effects, including tension or migraine headaches.

Tension headaches also result from changes in chemicals in the brain, including serotonin, endorphins and other chemicals. When these levels fluctuate, the body elicits several responses from crying to clenching the jaw and other muscles in the body.

Like tension headaches, the hormones and excess tension in the body due to crying may trigger migraine headaches, which have more severe symptoms (such as nausea, visual disturbances and dizziness) than tension headaches.

Headaches related to crying can cause the following symptoms: dull pain; pressure in the forehead and around the head; tenderness and tension in the scalp, neck and shoulders; and feelings of stomach upset.

Migraine headaches distinguish themselves from tension headaches in that they may be precipitated by a halo of light, known as a migraine "aura" or severe, often numbing sensations of pain.

even five yearolds these days know fairytales are plain bullshit.

任性

has got me in dipshit.

chronicles of never

昨天，你再一次把我活生生的扔在一旁。

感覺是

被帶到美麗的森林去，你卻突然消失，抛下我一個，迷失在森林裏。

現在我，原地站著，毫無頭緒該怎麽離開。

多美麗的森林，沒有你，就沒有意思了。

感覺是

如果我的生活是一本書，本來你的名字會一直出現到最後。

但是，名字不見了，故事，講不通。

是你叫我重視你的

好了，現在我真正的重視你

還重視到，以爲，沒有你不行的地步

還以爲，你會是我的終點

我怎麽會那麽聽話

如果我一直本著自己

那 我就不會那麽傷了

我真是一個笨女人

其實我想到了很多憎恨你的理由

不過也很清楚 我做不到

問你之後有什麽不同

你說 沒大不同。

我想 現在我有點怕你了

朋友 還可以

好朋友 做不到。

不想再告訴你事情

大概是太失望了吧

。

葡萄成熟時

差不多冬至　早一晚還是有雨
當初的堅持　現已令你很懷疑　很懷疑
你最尾等到　只有這枯枝

苦戀幾多次　悉心栽種全力灌注
所得竟不如　別個後輩收成時
這一次　你真的很介意

但見旁人談情何引誘
問到何時葡萄先熟透
你要靜候　再靜候
就算失收　始終要守

日後　儘量別教今天的淚白流
留低　擊傷你的石頭　從錯誤裡吸收
也許　豐收　月份尚未到你也得接受
或者要到你將愛釀成醇酒
時機先至熟透

應該怎麼愛　可惜書裡從沒記載
終於摸出來　但歲月卻不回來　不回來
錯過了春天　可會再花開

一千種戀愛　一些需要情淚灌溉
枯萎的溫柔　在最後會長回來
錯的愛　乃必經的配菜

想想天的一邊　亦有個某某　在等候
一心只等葡萄熟透　嚐杯酒

別讓　寂寞害你傷得一夜白頭
仍得不需要的自由　和最耀眼傷口
我知　日後　路上或沒有更美的邂逅
但當你智慧都蘊釀成紅酒　仍可一醉自救
誰都心酸過　那個沒有

recycle reduce reuse

i want to pick some branches up after school. 

paint them in bright colours. and put it on tv shelf as display.

Branches by Ginette Lapalme

credits to Michael Cheung

if i wear this out...

i'd turn out to look like sherlock holmes.

bubblegum pink?

i like this colour. but i wouldnt wear it.

nicolee you might like this

Louis Reith.

每天你就是這樣的周旋著我。

摘下放大鏡，才發現原來自己只得到了沙粒般的感覺. ombre- - 7 月 16 日

you are my final destination. MJ TAM replied. 不要失散 - 7 月 14 日

if i had a single flower for everytime i think about you, i could walk forever in my garden. - 7 月 11 日

時間一分分地飄過 - 7 月 1 日

( pacemaker ) walk an extra mile indians + cowboys - 6 月 24 日
( pacemaker ) clear vision indians + cowboys - 6 月 22 日

( pacemaker ) you never know. disorientation indians + cowboys - 6 月 21 日

( pacemaker ) bleeding minds indians + cowboys - 6 月 10 日

19 ( pacemaker ) lets just jettison I WAN NEW IPHONE indians + cowboys yeeha! - 6 月 8 日

22 ( pacemaker ) 很幼稚的等- - 6 月 4 日

24 ( pacemaker ) 麻木到一邊乾香檳一邊抽煙觀看地震 - 6 月 3 日

27 ( pacemaker ) 月球正以約每年3厘米的速度遠離地球. - 5 月 30 日

29 ( pacemaker ) ephemeral let the birds fly. - 5 月 28 日

30 ( pacemaker ) ephemeral this could be something - 5 月 27 日

31 ( pacemaker ) de javu - parallel universe. - 5 月 25 日

31 ( pacemaker ) believe. and it will come back to you. my brain is a dried prune. - 5 月 25 日

32 ( pacemaker ) 碎影 my brain is a dried prune. - 5 月 25 日

34 ( pacemaker ) I WAN TO DIE DIE DIE. - 5 月 23 日

37 ( pacemaker ) this is just like bashing the water get me out of this labyrinth. - 5 月 20 日

40 總有恨不得放棄的時候 - 5 月 17 日

41 AMY AMY HAPPY BDAY ILY BIG TIME ! 多麽艱巨的事情 - 5 月 16 日

42 are we really what we think we are' - 5 月 14 日

47 1234 anndemeulemeester - 5 月 10 日

我存在 在 你的存在 50 anndemeulemeester - 5 月 7 日

printer madness 54 anndemeulemeester disintegrate- - 5 月 4 日

let time be the witness. 55 anndemeulemeester relapse - 5 月 2 日

1/6, 817, 394, 740 57 harder- relapse - 4 月 29 日

whenever i am with you. 62. #931028 relapse - 4 月 25 日

play the tricks 62. #931028 relapse - 4 月 25 日

dayum 64. stupid to wait #931028 throbb. - 4 月 23 日

dayum 65. #931028 throbb. - 4 月 23 日

i cant stop thinking about you. shit. 67 . no.eleven - 4 月 20 日

this gotta mean something, right? no.eleven - 4 月 19 日

who knows what this all mean? dilemma no.eleven - 4 月 19 日

你會在那裏 過得快樂或委屈 no.eleven - 4 月 18 日

兩個人的事情 pandora ep17 : OO hins no.eleven - 4 月 18 日

喘氣 bittersweet orbit 期待著73日後的空氣 - 4 月 15 日

缺氧 bittersweet orbit 期待著73日後的空氣 - 4 月 15 日

請緊記: 你是全世界， bittersweet orbit 期待著73日後的空氣 - 4 月 14 日

你的心不是公廁

"You are who you are and you say what you feel, those who mind don’t matter, and those who matter don’t mind"
Dr. Seuss 

cheukwanchi-

hmmm?

shuaiqi.

i can almost rename this blog to: what i what my boyfriend to wear

jokes. it's just that the womens stuff are being posted elsewhere. i'd tell you if i want to. please don't be too disgusted at my new obsession.

If I was economically independent, and we live together. I'd buy this. Unisex bags are handy. And 478 us dollars sounds so much more affordable.