journal

wouldn't it be nice if you get to have a cup of coffee in your hands
and a nice comfy couch to relax during a counselling session?

i mean
their so called mission is to make you happy
and i thought caffaine makes you hyper... so thats kinda like happy right?
and a nice couch, duh i wouldn't even wanna leave then.


the counseller told me to write a journal
i told her i didn't want to write
in fact, i hate writing, holding a pen bores me, dont ask me why
except for planning and brainstorming i dont know
i didn't tell her i have a blog
cause it just feels awkward discussing a y-generation subject with a lady that obviously came from the x-generation

but this is what im doing
i think what she meant when she told me the purpose of writing a journal
is like
releasing the bad blood in artieries and veins, dont ask me how i remember all these crap

i didn't do much today
i didn't study
i didnt do much
time past really quick today for no particular reason
these are called my confused days
i do random things while i try to figure out whats going on in my life
i wonder why most people i know dont do that
it is just me that find life confusing and needs time to figure it out?

i argued that it is such a waste of time to study and work yourself on things you dont need
who would actually how to do mapping when you grow up?
who would actually remember the taxes and acts involved causing the seperation of america and britain?
who would actually remember how to use matrices?

(please remember there are exceptions, like if you wanna be a math teacher duh you need matrices, but im not okay)

let me put it this way
it's like you buy things you dont need
you spent time and a little bit of effort (carring it home) but you dont use it
they end up dusted under your bed

so you study on things you're not really interested in and not some potential career
you spent time and work youself
a few years later you probably wont remember them anymore.

okay whats the point

enjoy the privilage of having education?
enjoy the process of learning?


i wouldn't mind enjoy the process of learning when it's actually fun (so you enjoy) but when it's not enjoyable. yeah .