cold heart

since last friday i felt like i haven't stopped moving
i was always doing something
so time just slipped away like that

i still couldn't figure out what wayne would like to recieve for his birthday
i thought about getting him some gayish color tshirt
one- he can pull it off
two- it's a lame joke
three- i can actually afford something like that

but since he's such a shopaholic
i dont want my gift to end up somewhere in his closet then the garbage
so no.


i really don't know.
maybe i should just do a card
:/

ah.


and i get this imagery vision
like me and exams on a beach
im just like walking towards it
and it's running towards me
oh my god thats so creepy
im sorry, that was inspired by beloved jeffrey


geoffrey was right about i couldnt actually survive in a girls school
because all i think about is boys now
haha no thats a joke.
but yes
i like hanging out with boys
like
boys have things girls dont hav
as in personality not anatomy
boys are often straight foward and more like ''dont give a shit''
i very much appriciate that attitude
and i think thats how me and ben became best friends
since he's very onto the two qualities

i really love muisc with no lyrics nowadays
it's too soothing im addicted

and by the way
this blog really shows alot
i said to shiying
like
who actually cares about me

i remembered that
when i left aishk everyone was like
ohmygod ronnie im gonna miss you
and see how many people left here checking this blog
i mean
if there is this friend i really get good along with
i'd totally check his blog out everyday
but if that dude is just someone to have fun with
seriously would you bother. no

so im more like a person to have fun with then like
you know, soulmates
but oh well
i like this blog
it's a like a subconcious human experiment

til now
i dont really give a shit about my untitled blog
i think i should talk to that person
instead of praying they will be able to read it by chance


maybe it's that i turned my heater off
today seemed a bit colder than usual.


-ronnie cheung