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im sorry, im in a desperate mood of bursting out things i wanted to tell you for a long time.
and in here, 'you' applies to alot of people. so one of the yous might be you.

1. i wish you hadn't let go.
2. you're such a [single minded hypocritical materialistic need-anger-management ] in conclusion: stupid bitch.
3. i wonder what would it be like if we were still best friends.
4. i wish you weren't that busy so we can talk all day.
5. i am scared of the fact that you will die before i do.
6. you will be my best friend for life. i know that as a fact because you will always be the one who support me no matter what. even the things you say doesn't really solve the problem, i like having your accompany.
7. the last time we went out you asked me if i really do love you. and i said yes. but i was unsure. will you still talk to me like now if i tell you the truth?
8. i wonder if i wasn't around, would we be as close?


---updated may 25---

i have decided that since i've spilled half of the secrets, i might as well spill the full.
maybe part of the reason is that i want to experiment human feelings, including myself.
another is that life is too short to keep things to yourself, what if that person dies tomorrow and you will never get the chance to tell them anymore.

1. luke
2. li ann. i dont think i care whether she will be mean to me after this. im not really into being inside bitch.
3. angela
4. johnson
5. mom
6. ben
7. willy
8. nicole


trial one: after i finished typing down names
im feeling really scared yet excited now. like a little girl getting her first test results back.

trial two: after 2-3 hours
i wonder if people have read those yet, i wonder what they are thinking. i dont want to lose some of them.