karma got me

i know i mentioned about my plan to fake sick today
but today i'm actually sick
runny nose
sore shoulders and back
blocked ears
and a feeling that i have thick pasty soup bubbling in my head

i went to sick bay the first 4 classes
but then with the nurse encouragement and my own motivation
(in going to english so i can get something out of boring romeo and juliet)
i went to period 5 and 6

the nurse told me to go to class, why?
cause she thinks im faking the symtoms,
yeah
im seeing that school counsellor and she said she'll tell the nurse and head of bh about it
just to have an eye on me
right.
on faking sick?
like yeah the head of bh came to talk to me and ask me is it just that i dont feel like going to school
she knows nothing about me
and i was just thinking while i was ''smiling'', can you get out of here? i need my rest.



fuck.
this is not doing any good.
being sick around exams is never a good thing.
i just realized.
i dont think i've ever been sick around exams
and yeh i feel kind of hopeless now
cause nothing is really processing through my brain
besides the really easy brain tasks: like this.
just typing what i feel like.


i was just reading blogs and im not getting anything out of it. not like i do all the time.
but just than i was just scrolling down the page with a blank mind, not even thinking.